even since i'm out of the national team training squad... going out wif frens for gathering... playing bball etc... etc...
i personally felt tat... our distance... are getting further... maybe i'm thinking too much... or... it's juz tat... it's a long time since i hang out wif them... i'm feeling so so far apart from them... things among them also happened... yet i duno wad it is... i still have to ask one by one... wad's going on... wad's happen now... ever since the Yew Tee Cup has finished... ytcc has been so quiet... it's like dead... only less then 10 ppl came down today... play until 830pm then pack up go home liao...

received news from jiaren and yunyun... uncle Yam has passed away today... i felt very sad... duno wad to say... juz... very sad... very sad...

SIgn off...
HM(T___T)

so Sad... AftEr LaSt ThUrsDAy NaTIonaL TraInINg, The "ang Mo" CoaCH SayS tat... i DiDn'T MakE it TO thE FinaL 18 PpL in THe SQuaD... hEaRd LiaO... SI bEI LosT... SupEr Low MOrAle... OtheRs Juz DoiNG tHEir WaRM-dOwn, WHilE I juZ UnTiEd My ShoElaCE... Go StraiGht To THe BAtHRm, TooK A SHowER And WEnT HomE... i'Ve BeEN TraIniNG WIf THem SIncE LaST DeCEmbEr... ThE fEElinG's LIke... All EfForTs Juz WenT DowN To tHe DRaIn... Juz An INsTaNt... So SaD... Juz Can'T BeLiEve I din EveN mAke It in THe FinAl 18... Now i THink I Can'T EveN ApPly For POly liao... EveRYThinG Juz TurN Out So SO BaD... WaY Off The CHaRts... NotHing'S Gd EvEr SIncE thE STaRT oF The Mth Of JUne... HaiZ....

It'S BeEn AbouT A WeEk SIncE i Got "kicked OuT"... -.-" " " GoiNG HomE... WaTCh Tv... Then GO jogGIng... TakE A WAlk OUtSidE... noW I kNw life'S So BOrinG WhEn u'Re noT WorKing HArD For SomeTHing... TOtaLly No AChieVEmeNt... No MOtIVaTion... eVERyTHinG SeeMS So lOSt TO me... I NeveR FeLT likE ThiS BEFOrE... it's SO WEirD... LIkE... I dunO WaD To Do NExT... For Now... Juz HavE to TakE 1 Step @ a TImE... aNd SLowlY FInd My Way BAck... And HopE To GeT BAck TO thE NatIonal TraIL AGaIn... Ppl TolD me... I'm Still YounG... YEsh... I'm Still YounG... But... Do I GeT a 2nD ChAnCe? 3Rd ChaNCe...? We"ll See How... I'll FigHT BaCk... Juz U WaiT...

No MaTtER How HArD i TrY... HoW HArD i WOrK... hoW HarD I FigHT foR iT... I sTill Didn'T AChiEvE it... BUt... I'm Still BEinG MesmErized By The DreAM i WanA MakE iT ComE TrUE... Jia You...

SIgn OfF..
HM(T____T) CounTinG DoWn TO 8Th JulY...

TaKE CaRE...
MiSs Ya All...