this mth of August... was the worst ever... can't cope with sch work, car accident... phone got stolen...
wanna end this mth quickly... seriously... T_T

u're not the only one who's upset when u think about it... Till now I still wish we're still together... Loving each other... But think u don't wanna get back together again...

rushing lab report... not knowing gonna submit on Friday... gonna stay up the whole night to finish and don't even know where to start...

next Thursday is re-exam of 'A' Maths... haven't even started studying... so many to revise...

I've failed all my Biology Semester Test... lowest in class... feel so fucking pathetic...

at this rate... should i even carry on to study????

as for work... so what if i got promoted??? pay now... $1480... big deal... what's worst? no yearly increment... 6mths since the Giant Panda Project Interview... till now still no news yet! Can i hang on?? give me a hint personally...!!! rumors are bullshit...!!! i need news from management!!! at least i know there's something for me to hang on to!!!

life's so screwed up... totally screwed up...

got into car accident... on saturday... dun wanna talk about how it happen... parents know about it... gotten angry... blaming & insisting that i talk on the phone while driving... I DIDN'T!!!!! till now still nagging all over... i'm so sick and tired of it... didnt slp for the past 2 nights... kept having the images in my head... really need to find a place to hang out at till late night, make sure they slp first before i step into the house... to save myself from the nagging...

happen to saw baby's twitter status on my phone this morning, she fainted at home ytd morning... saying she's fine now... so relief she's doing fine now... heartbeat pumped freaking fast... then saw her another status... sayin "u were not there when i needed u, i'm really disappointed and upset... i was all alone... =(((" who's she refering to? guess she already with someone else... no matter how hard i tried to give her my all, the attention, care & concern... i won't be able to have her back by my side...

i miss u... gd nights...

Had a car accident last night... A sway thing to happen... Hit onto a 'P' plate driver somemore... what's worst... when I parked to one side... Police drove pass and stop... Knn... Can't be even more sway... -_- now no car to drive... Suck... Can't travel everywhere... Went to see doctor 5am in the morning, couldn't slp at all...

Baby's attending the serve beer and mingle event at chong pang camp, saying that it's a small 4hr events. And she needs the quick cash, telling me she will be fine, as she know the ppl there. I dun like her doing this serve beer and mingle, cause I couldn't stand guys "hugging" taking photos, or drink beer as she couldn't hold the beer that well. Guess that's part of the job? Makes me worried very much, doesn't mean u know the ppl means nth will happen... But in the end, she needs this job to get the quick cash. Hope she let me know she's doing fine, I can send her back even though I had no car, but at least when I sent her home, knowing she reach home safe & sound.

Miss ya. =)

Time to start work... Will blog again ltr tonight... Gd morning...

Got a letter from my curator ytd afternoon... Saying i got promoted... But... I'm not happy about it... Not looking forward to it either...

Aug 19th... Re-test for 'A' Maths... Aug 11th... Biology Semester Test... How to study...?! Really duno how... At least... Thankfully... Off season...

I've failed my 'A' Maths module... Gonna go for re-sit... Failed by 3marks... So frustrating... Struggling on my Biology module as well, as I don't have a gd background on basic science... Working also very physically tired as well, thankfully it's off season at the moment... At this current situation... Not too sure if I shld quit sch, it's so tiring & hard to management... Really scare I can't cope... It's hard... But I have to keep trying... Keep pushing...

If everything's change...
Remember me...
How did I fall in love with u...

It hurts so much... That every time my heart beats... It gave a sinking feeling...
Everything I do... Reminds me of u...

I miss u...

:'(

Congratulation to Baby, got promoted to manager. Keep it up, jia you, :) love & misses...

Why shld I care & concern for her...
Why shld I worried for her...
Why shld I feel like jealous or something else...
Why shld I?

Ans is because I still love her so much...

:''(

I hate to see when u're together with somebody else, cause it hurts. But I hate it even more and hurts so much, knowing u're unhappy and tired when we're together... :'(

Thinking of u in the day... Dreaming of u at night... Hmmm...

wanna...

I wanna hug & tell u, I miss u & love u so so much.

Even I told ya this... guess it won't change anything... As ur heart is somewhere else... :'(

oh my god...

27th May, u decided to take a step back, I'm okay.
10th June, u asked me why we broke that day, because of different in character and barriers between us, and between this time, I still give u my attention whenever u msg me, and u told me that ya got closer with W.Jian?! That break my heart instantly. Since u think he's better then how I'm treating... I'm happy for u as u found a better man.
22nd June, for the first we skype, chat on msn... U called me Baby... U ended the conversation by saying "I love u"... I was like... Blurred... What do u want now?? Can u tell me?

It hurts... But what does it means? Because it's over? Or I just couldn't bare to let her go? What can I do to improve myself to make this relationship better? This question was always on my mind...thinking of her all the time, wondering if she's thinking of me too......

:'(

:'(

:'(

tired...

I'm so tired... Just wanna... Sit down at one corner... Close my eyes... Rest... Don't ever wish to wake up...

got thrown ard at work... till now still not sure which section i'm gonna work at... just like a basketball being thrown all ard the place... T_T

i'm messed up by alot of things... can someone... pls untangle me...?

Reaching in...

i've tried reaching in for u... but there's no respond, it's either "don't know", "see how", or u're out with others.

='(

Efforts...
have i put in enough effort to make things better?
have i put in enough effort to give u all the attention and care & concern?
have i put in enough effort to be there for u? no matter u're sad or happy?

Do i...
Do i get to share ur joy with u?
or Do i just only get to share ur sorrow while u share u joy with others?

Baby passed her driving test!!! happy for her. =) Gd job baby! love ya.

Doesn't mean i can't sweet talk to u to make u happy, doesn't mean i don't love u.

i need u...

i need u to tell me how u feel, so we can move onwards together...
i couldn't be the one always tell u how i feel yet u don't wanna tell me how u feel?
how u expect me to know? i don't guess. i couldn't think deep enough. i'm sorry.
i couldn't afford this, i couldn't afford that. Could u understand my situation what i'm going through? i can only give u my attention & care & support to u, what other needs would u like to have?

can u pls tell me how u feel?

7th May - Angry? Disappointed? Sad? Confused?

if i tell ya this story, how would u feel?

On the Thursday night, i asked Baby if she's free to meet up for lunch. No need for her to travel so far out, i can meet her up at Tampines Area, to spend time with her & have a gd meal before her sch graduation prom night. She say have to see what time she woke up the next morning. i say okay, let me know. The next morning, i woke up early knowing that i don't have enough slp for the past few days, i make an effort waking up early to wash up prepare my stuffs, as when the moment she called, i can straight head out without wasting any precious time. I woke up at 9am, wash up packed my stuff and waited for a her call anxiously. Past noon, no msg/call from her, i msg her 3 msgs & no reply for the past 1 hr. I've waited till 1pm plus, i make the initiative to call her. When she pick up the phone, i ask her if she's free to meet up for lunch. She said she's having lunch with her mum, i was surprised. My heart had a sinking feel, very sad. i said ok, u go have ur lunch then. Then i msg her to have a gd meal. She replied saying "sorry, didn't have the time to msg when i leave home, sorry" when i see that, i replied nvm. she replied me a sad face symbol. i didn't replied, i was very disappointed. so sad that she gave this kinda excuse. For the past 1 hr, u holding on to ur phone not knowing ur phone rang??? i breakdown, cried. why did i cry??? why??? can someone tell me??? didn't slp the whole night that day. too sad to do so...

now how would u feel if u were me?

hmmm...

Labour Day.

met up with baby at Orchard Rd, fixed up her eyelashes. The eyelash was pretty well done, very nice on baby. Haha, then have japanese food for dinner & bought a bag for her. Hope she likes it. Head out to Night Safari with baby, her family & relatives. i've managed to help baby to fork out the price of the tics, ease her burden a lil. But most importantly everyone enjoy themselves! it's gd!

Today,
Saw baby's Fan Page, she uploaded the pics she have taken at the Chong Pang Camp event. looks like she's enjoying herself alot, *but... when i see some of the guys place their hands ard her waist, i'm so jealous sia...* it's gd baby didn't drink much, but just dun like her to work this kinda jobs, cause she got wasted last time at the same place too!!! i'm so damn farking worried!!!! my head kept spinning!!! "if she gonna okay? how come haven't reply my msg yet?? nvr pick up my call!!! ARGHH!!!!!" just couldn't help worrying. i maybe over-protecting her, but i have my ego & pride de leh. Noone wans his gf like that de la... even for me... haiz... was so freaking worried when she's attending this kinda of work event, hope this will be the last time le. hmmm... -.-"

sometimes... just wondering... if she appreciates that i care & love for her... Not sure if she's really think of how i would feel? i dun wanna think so much! but just couldn't help it. really gotta stop this kinda thinking la... this totally sucks. She's gonna have a prom night on Friday, then she's going clubbing wif her gf after the prom. saying she's gonna go there control her. i was like... huh?? her sch frens accompany her can't control her meh? what makes u so sure u can control her sia, i don't know her frens well, so i don't wanna jump to any stupid conclusions. oh my god... there comes my ego & pride... shit.... lol...! hmmm, could it be Baby wanna go club too? lol, Baby go ahead la, i'm sure u're big enough to know how to take care of urself le,(but i still will be worried de la, what if a bunch of guys come to u & ur gf? whose gonna help? are ur frens able to help u &ur gf? as ur frens clubbing somewhere else in the club or dead drunk? ARGH!!! my ego!!! shit!!!!) Since baby's going to prom then club to celebrate their graduation from poly, hope she'll have fun that night, feel happy for her. Baby, pls take care of urself there, & look after ur belongings k? & dun wonder too far from ur group of frens. =) oh shit... my naggy-ness is out again... lol... i love u baby. =)

i've tried... i've really tried...

i've tried my best... i've gave everything... just ain't gd enough help the team to win... but i'm sure everyone gave their best... we just have to learnt this lesson... & move on from there ...

Manage to pass Baby my thumbdrive earlier after the game, hope she's able to convert the movies / videos she need... thought that she'll be able to stay with me for just a short while after my game, but her dad's waiting for her. Well, as long as she reach home safe & sound. it's gd. Hope i can meet her up & spend more time with her soon.

my blog's up again. cheers everyone. gd nights & sweetest dreams. =)

Do you know what loving you does for me?

It brings so much happiness to every second...

every minute...

every hour of my life...

i'm still trying to catch up... even game we played... i'm still so far away frm u guys... till i noticed i'm still damn far away frm everyone... didn't notice i've stopped my footsteps for such a long time...

Happy Lunar New Yr Everyone... wanna thank everyone who send their new yr greetings... including my working colleges... u guys rawks...! time flies... it's Monday! time to start work le... haha... i'll be starting work on Tuesday... can't wait... been on holiday for too long... hope u guys enjoy ur new yr holidays too...

Today... is one of our Singapore Zoo's Star Icon... Sumatran Orang Utan "Ah Meng"'s Memorial Ceremony... as most of u heard frm the news... she left us on the 2nd Day of Lunar New Yr @ 1120am... news were spread among colleges to colleges... some cried... some just speechless... the memorial was taken place @ 9am this morning... held @ Garden With A View... i was there to say a last gdbye to "Ah Meng"... and she was slping so peaceful & looks so gentle... though i'm just a new keeper... i've heard lots of stories of this wonderful creature...

To "Ah Meng" ,

Loves & Kisses... Miss ya always...

Frm Keepers of Children's World.

hey everyone... back to updating again... haha... looks like quite lots of stuff in my section recently nehz... firstly... Monday... One of our female goat whose a dominant female... gave birth to 2 young & healthy babies!!!! Male & Female... haha... the father of the babies even jump out of the exhibit & walk towards the enclosure to see the Mama give birth... and he lay down just outside the enclosure door... then jump back into the exhibit... well... that's something u don't see everyday... hahaha...

As of today... my section head walkie for us to meet him @ the horse carriage starting point... when one of my colleges went over... was told that there's a injured squrriel laying down @ the entrance of the Animal Land... it was brought back to our section... hoping we can help it as much as we can... from morning... we kept observing oftenly & closely... it's breathing... but ain't moving itself... it's very weak... it dun even give a damn if u touch it... just imagine how bad the injury was... till 4pm... one of our colleges wans me to bring it to the Vet Lab... to let the Dr see... if there's anything can be done... Dr says to drop by after work to see the situation of the squrriel... after work we went straight there... Dr says that an X-ray was taken on the animal... found out there's a fracture skull & might have an internal bleeding on the head... suspected that it falls down landing on the head first... she've no choice but to put it down...my colleges & i are quite demoralising... but... that's life... the very least is that we tried out best & gave everything we got to help that lil fella...

well... think that's all for now... will update again... cheers!

hi everyone.... i'm now really struggling to create this post now... just finish my bball training this evening... really very tired... whole body's gonna shut down pretty soon... in my previous post, i wanna show u guys the baby rabbits isn't it? well... i'm gonna do that... plus something else... one of the female goats we had in the Children's World... just gave birth to a baby male & female this afternoon!!! hoepfully they're gonna be fine when i get back to see them tomorrow morning... -.-" well... here are the pics... enjoy...

hmm... One of our Mama Rabbit gave birth!!!! She just gave birth to 4 babes... 2 males & 2 females... now she gave to 3 a few days ago!!! oh My GoDz...!!! no place to put them when they grow older lehz... jialat la... haiz... come to think of that... our mama rabbit really gd @ producing lehz... hahaha... think she expert liao la... hahaha...! will update u guys regarding the newly born babies... will take some pics if possible... Gd NiteZ!!!

hi everyone, Happy Belated New Yr... hahaha! Sorry everyone, just tired from work & training.... and once i reach home, slack online & freaking lazy to update my blog. i'll sometimes rather update my friendster instead! hahaha.... =p.

wad about u guys? Any Goals u hoping to acheive in the Yr'08? Me? just pray all the animals in the Zoo will be as healthy as ever. haha... Children's World is under a major upgrade, costing ard $8.8 million lehz... up till now... the new horse stables are finally finish... feels so gd...! can't wait for it to get the rest of Children's World to finish! haha... but i still gonna miss the old place though.

Chinese New Yr coming lo... hahaha... any of u guys having a gathering? let me know? i'll be on Annual Leave from 7th to 10th then start work on Monday... gonna miss the animals so much while i'm on leave... =(

well... think that's about all liao la... pls keep in touch ok? i'll see u guys soon...! to take a look @ my friendster profile k? i've update some nice pics... hahaha...! Shoutout to the all Zoology staff... U guys Rawks!!!

3mths... since my last blog... well... everything's the same... my blog skin's the same... hope to change it soon... me? well... still as usual... single... haha... now i'm working as a zookeeper @ Singapore Zoo... guess almost everyone of u knows that... some dun... some surprise that they dun believe me... haha... i enjoy working there... even though the income is quite low to me... but i'll manage the income slowly... for now no buying of latest gadgets i fancy of... As for basketball... still love playing it.. even though i'm not playing as often as it used to be... still enjoying every moment on & off the court during the competition... i'm currently still training @ Rongda... for the upcoming "Converse Cup" which will be held next mth, if i got the chance to play. For now... just wanna concentrate on my work, as till now... there ain't any commitments for me now... oh... the commitments are refering to relationships & those sort of stuffs... i'll just go wif the flow, if there's a commitment to it, i'll just have to slowly adapt to wad i need ba... & i'll swear u guys will be the 1st to know... well... guess... that's all for now... cheers everyone... cya soon... PeAcE =)

oh ya... one more thing... i've changed my mobile number... it's 9145 3545... cya...

3 weeks wifout any updates... haha... and i thought it's more then a mth since i last updated... as not many of my frens know wad i'm working as... i'm currently working as a Zookeeper @ Singapore Zoo... started on the 23rd July... still under probation... the section i'm working for is "Children's World"... where there's Goats & Sheep (which i'm currently helping taking care of.) Horses, Ponys, Miniature Horses, Cows, Pigs, Rabbits( One of them just gave birth, so happy!!!) & Donkeys... Our Main Attractions are the Pony Riding & the Horse Carriage... very nice & glamorous... haha... 1st day of work... got kicked by a Pony while helping to groom him... lucky it just "brushes" pass my knee... otherwise it'll be a fracture knee... haha... now... i've learn how to groom the Ponys & Miniature Horses... won't get kicked liao... now i've to wrestle wif the dominant male Goat... as it's one of the front legs were limping... have to change the bandage once in a while... i've lots of fun... still tryin the learn as much as i could... haha...! even though the cleaning of exhibit dens is boring... =p Let me know early if u're dropping by? haha... i'll try to get some complimentry tickets for u guys... haha...! Take Care All!!! Love Ya...!

hi to all readers... sorry for not updating... really lazy... & sometimes busy... haha... it's been almost 3 weeks since i ORD... i'm still struggling wif my cash flow... as i was jobless for the last 3 weeks... for these 3 weeks... going to gym... playing ball... looking for jobs... and i've finally found one... hopefully i can start by next Monday... working @ Singapore Zoo as a Zookeeper... surprise?! well... most of my frens are quite surprise... hmmm... once i started working... all my weekends & public holiday will be burnt le... haha... but... i'm still working from 8 to 545pm... i can still play ball after work... but not that often le... hehe... hmmm... well... think that's all about it le... really can't update much of it lehz... hahaha... one more thing... wanna thank ShiHui... my lil Sis for giving me a wonderful Birthday Present... it's very nice... thkx so much... & everyone who give me their birthday wishes on my frenster & sms(s)... & thkx gary for reminding me to update my blog...

CheErs EveryOnez... LoVe Ya...!
HonGMinG

it's a long time since i've update this blog... haha... either... i'm lazy... or busy... or forgotten my user id & password to this Blog... haha...

today is 26th June 07, which is... my ORD date... my last day of National Service in Sembawang Airbase. really miss the ppl i've worked wif in the office (PAC)... my Mdms... my collegues... my NSF buddies there... U GUYS ROCK!!!! I'll see u guys @ Ms Christina's Wedding... haha... will be so looking forward to it nehz... hahaha...

@ the moment i've collected my Pink IC... saying gdbye to everyone @ the office... once i've step out of the camp... a new chapter has begun... time to look for a job le... can't depend on parents anymore... well... even though my parents still treat me like a little kid... i can't do anything about it... hahaha... well... think tat's all for now... will try to update again... hoprfully more oftenly la...

p.s: Sarah... update liao... suang ma? =p hahahaha... !
Gary... for u to see... just in case u boring... hahahaha....!

been a week since i hurt my ankle... the ankle joint is still swollen... rashes all over... very itchy... scratch till skins peels off... bruises all over my joint... haiz... bad sign man... how to recover in time? looks like giving myself till Friday for full recover... will be a difficult task to fulfill... really hope i can recover and start playing this coming Friday... Just in case, coach and the guys getting me to take part in the small competition @ YTCC... 1st game might be @ 1st week of June... quite a rush... =( i've been resting for so long since my operation... now... this happen... thinking back the day i've hurt my ankle... heartaches... efforts training... conditioning... gone down to the drain nehz... super low morale lehz... -_-...

haiz... super boring since Tuesday Nite... training @ Rongda... left 10mins to lights off... yet i hurt my ankle... super swollen... super pain... super difficult to walk...kept calling my frens... who have clutches... to borrow me... lucky Roy's able to help... along came steve, both of them acc me to NUH A&E to register and acc me throughout the whole nite... waited for 4hrs just for consulation... so pissed off... and doc's excues is... " realy sorry, have forgotten u..." damn... i'm so big size... everytime u open ur door can already see me in front of u, yet u say u've forgotten about me... wad kind of doc is this lehz... haiz... anyway... gd news is... there's no sign of fracture... but bad news is... doc says i've might torn my ligament... well... it's better then fracture anyway... the next day i woke up, the relief of pain is so much better then last nite... at least now i can barely walk without the clutches... but i'll still use it when i'm out... just in case... hahaha... i'll be seeing a chinese doc tomolo @ CCK now it's swollen i've problem wearing my sandals... hopefully the chinese doc will be able to "reduce" the size of the swollen, otherwise i won't be going anyway... -_-" i've rest for 9mths since my operation... now efforts spend on the training went straight down to the drain... so sadz... have to rest for 2 weeks again... must get well soon... no matter wad...

haiz... super boring since Tuesday Nite... training @ Rongda... left 10mins to lights off... yet i hurt my ankle... super swollen... super pain... super difficult to walk...kept calling my frens... who have clutches... to borrow me... lucky Roy's able to help... along came steve, both of them acc me to NUH A&E to register and acc me throughout the whole nite... waited for 4hrs just for consulation... so pissed off... and doc's excues is... " realy sorry, have forgotten u..." damn... i'm so big size... everytime u open ur door can already see me in front of u, yet u say u've forgotten about me... wad kind of doc is this lehz... haiz... anyway... gd news is... there's no sign of fracture... but bad news is... doc says i've might torn my ligament... well... it's better then fracture anyway... the next day i woke up, the relief of pain is so much better then last nite... at least now i can barely walk without the clutches... but i'll still use it when i'm out... just in case... hahaha... i'll be seeing a chinese doc tomolo @ CCK now it's swollen i've problem wearing my sandals... hopefully the chinese doc will be able to "reduce" the size of the swollen, otherwise i won't be going anyway... -_-" i've rest for 9mths since my operation... now efforts spend on the training went straight down to the drain... so sadz... have to rest for 2 weeks again... must get well soon... no matter wad...

feel so sick... stomach cramp... wif high fever... think this is the worst illness i had so far... feel so terrible... pls recover soon... really can't take this kind of pain... went into the toilet multiple times... headache and fever makes my head gonna explode... doc gave me MC for 2 days... wondering it there's enough time to recover... feel so terrible now... =( haiz...

praying for fast recovery....

hmmm... si bei sianz... nothing to do... might as well type out my "weekly schedule" hahaha....
Mondays: playing ball @ ytcc...
Tuesdays: Training @ ytcc....
Wednesdays: Free...
Thursdays: Free...
Fridays: Training @ Ytcc, after training will be Free....
Saturdays: helping out my Auntie, Free in Late Afternoons....
Sundays: Wif Family till Late Afternoon, then Free...

tat's my programe... haha... -_-

somebody scold me... say my blog's so dead... she so mean... =(
no time to update ma... hahaha... dun like that la... close 1 eye abit lo... hahaha... well... ACTUALLY.... it's not i'm busy... just that... i'm so so so lazy to update... wad's more... my house no more computer le... only can use my younger brother's laptop lo... he's using it very often ma... i also bo bian lo... Miss Sarah... pls be kind enough to "spon" me a desktop? i'll be very very glad to update my blog EVERYDAY nehz... hahaha...!!! when u wanna acc me eat sushi buffet? say anytime... gif me a date la... i'll make sure i be free... hahaha...!

2mths more... ORD lo... haha... after this 2 yrs of chapter ends... it's time for another new chapter... new challenge... have to be mentally prepare wad's coming ahead of me...

presently... i'm now having basketball training lo... really need to cut down some weight.. it's dragging me down... have to physical and mentally fit... otherwise it'll be difficult to play wif my frens... so... currently... i'm training @ EngTat Hornets... have been training there for almost 1mth or so... reason for leaving Tagawa... would rather to keep it to myself... if u desperately wanna know... come ask me personally ba... =) it's really sad to leave... some ppl may think it's selfish... but i'm sure others will understand... if they dun, i don't have a choice... training @ EngTat... everyone there gave me lots of lots of motivation... makes me feel like home... didn't know there's so many "jokers" there... including the older batch of seniors... haha... well... that's all for now... will try to update more...

P.s: Sarah... pls read k...? hahahaha!! =P any wrong spelling... wrong vocab or grammar... sms me k? hahaha....!!!!!=b

hi everyone, it's been a mth or so since my last post, ppl who came and visit my blog yet see no updates... my apologies...

now... about myself for the past 1 mth... nothing's change... i'm still as fat as ever... still weighing @ a 122kg, no change in height... how i wish i increase my height... hahaha... i'm still excersing...
3mths more... to ORD...!!!! hahaha... can't wait till that day le... after that... i'll be a free agent... mind made up not going back to tagawa... it doesn't feel like home since my youth days... really enjoy & miss those times during my youth cup periods... felt like a total stranger when i attend just 1 training during my resting periods... from that moment onwards... i guess it's my time to leave... going to a team wif more motivation & encouragement... setting a new target, achivement... getting into a new enviroment... all the best... & all the way...!!! no regrets... just memories left inside my mind... all the gd time i had wif buddies(no need mention the names, u know who u are... haha...) in tagawa... okies... that's all i'll say... more updates... pls see frenster ba... maybe it helps... hahaha... add is hongming_84@hotmail.com

cheers all...
HongMing

hi all, didn't update my blog for quite a while, really sorry about it, just sometimes really lazy to blog la... hahaha.... New Yr's over le... any holiday tat i can look forward to? well... still long ah... but... 3mths more.... i'll complete my national service le... time really flies nehz... wah hahaha... finally can see my pink IC le... wah hahaha.... and... I've INCREASE WEIGHT again !!!! why lehz...?? damn morale low lehz... from 120kg... now 123kg lehz... wah lau... tat's alot lo... can't tahan lehz... maybe ate too much ba... but i didn't ate tat much lehz... how come lehz... sibei boring lehz... efforts wasted... hai... my back not completely recover... otherwise sure can exercise more de...

anyway.... there's might be somebody was looking for the past 1 week, and u can't get through to me via hp... tat's becos my line has been suspended by M1, now using a prepaid starhub line for this week... no. is 81467184... i'll be reachable by this number... once my old line has been renewed... will let u know... hahaha... GARY !!!! i update liao... just to keep u busy to read this post... bleah... =p

one more thing, been hearing frens saying i'm playing for a "mo Mo" club after i ORD... dun anyhow spread when u duno hor... u wanna know ah? come ask me la... my number's on the blog liao... come la... ask me... i'll gif u the ans... wah hahahhaahaha.....

happy chinese new yr to everyone...!!! from this post, wanna thank everyone who sent me their warmest and nicest chinese new yr greetings. and sorry for not replying back and sorry to everyone that i didn't send any greetings to u. pls accept my sincerest apologies.

it's chinese new yr, yet i dun have the chinese new yr mood. not really looking for this occasion, only looking for the long weekend holiday instead. haha... didn't go out much during the new yr, only visit my grandma's house then go back home for rest, and go out wif frens for gathering or something.

national basketball league is just next week, i'm not playing due to injuries, should i be there to support my frens @ the spectators stand? or should i just Missing In Action for that period till the whole competition? i just ended my season last yr, will i have a chance to play in that league? will i have another shot to get back to the s'pore team trail again? these questions still remains a mystery to me. when i'm out of the army, where should i go? guess this last question should be answered before any of these question can be answered. well, 4mths more till i ORD, see how it goes ba. i still have to look for a job too.

everything is hanging on to the last line.... wad's my deicision? when time comes, everything will be answered.

rgds,
HongMing

here it comes, chinese new yr. juz before this occasion, Valentine's Day. Anyone wanna date me? well... guess not... anyway.... 4mths more... till ORD... really can't wait... hope it comes sooner... really sick and tired in the life i've been through in my attach unit...

really tired past few days, been to gym after work, not enough slp the next day. causing my temper to get worst every now and then. A simple thing is enough to me so mad tat i have to swallow it myself, not expressing to any or everyone. ppl might think i'm crazy.

Everytime i say, "i'm willing to gif u my shoulder for u to lean on", "be always there for u", this time, i really need someone's shoulder to lean on, someone whom i can share my problems wif, someone i can trust, somone to encourage and motivate me whenever i'm down.

really wish u can appear rite in front of me now, even though that's impossible. but i'll be waiting for that moment.

long long time didn't update my blog... kana scolding frm ppl who visited my blog, just now already kana scolding from Gary liao... haha... very lazy to update la... only got time to chitchat @ my tagboard only... wah hahaha... for my injury condition, just recenlty start to play light basketball... still can't play very physically yet... it's a long time since i run, so... just running up and down a few times already panting like mad le, gasping for oxygen... can tell my condition is worst then i think... looks like i have to work hard to get back my usual condition, it's gonna be a tough time... cause New Yr's COMING !!!! haha... eating and drinking... wah.... i gonna have to work double hard after New Yr liao... otherwise confirm cannot make it ah... haha...

Time flies nehz... New Yr le... last New Yr isn't a memorable for me... and i dun wish to talk about it.... haha... wanna knw about it... can call me personally, and i'll tell u la... haha... counting down to 5mths... will be end of my national service le... haha... after tat, ur life won't be the same again... well... depends la... diff ppl diff thinking... haha... let's see how it goes....

well... tat's all for now le... wanna knw more story regarding why i didn't update recently? call me lo... hahaha... cya!

HongMing

HaPPy New Yr !!!!
Best WisHEs To EverYonez.
Able To FulFil Ur New Yr ReSouLtiOnz.
ThoSe whO SinGle, WisH u HavE a LovEly GiRlFreN/BoyFrEn soon.
ThoSe Who ArE Not, WisH u All Have A lOng And LOvEly Realtionship AhEad.
ThoSe Who ARe CouPle "to BE"... JIa YOU!!!!!

WannA Thank My Family, GrandMa, and Grandpa, my Aunts and Uncles, and Uncle Joe for
showing, giving me the care and concern frm the day i operate my lower back. TimE FilEs, it's
been 6mths, injury is healing nice and smoothly. Also wanna thank my frens who came and visit me during my stay in hospital, Steven (siglap), my safsa team captain, RongLie, Roy, Collin and Mars, Jenny and Alice the
twins sister, 1SG Saw, my senior in my unit. And Jason and family for bringing me out for late
nite snacks and bring me home after watching games. thank u so much!!!

as for my new yr wishes, er.. will it come true if i say it out? haha! the rest will be God's decision.
1st wish: to get better ! can't wait to get back on court. hahaha, really miss playing wif my frens.

2nd wish:to Have a Wonder and Caring Girlfren, then my relatives will gif me and her a BIG FAT JUICY "HongBao"!!! hahaha...! tat's part of the reason la. hehe.

tat's all le... hope to see u guys soon!!!
hapPy NeW YEAr!!
HongMing

rainy days going on and on... staying home... resting and resting...
when can i play bball again....? how long can i take this misery...?
i've once said tat, i've get used to it... dun think i can take it any longer...
"hao xin ku"....

wenting clubbing @ Obar last nite, very nice... and it's a long time since i've been there... see lots of frens and buddies there, even my camp mates also there ~! Very surprising ~!!! hahaha...! too bad i didn't bring my digital camera there... wad a waste... hahaha.... but all of us have lots of fun anyway.

christmas juz ard the corner... christmas lights were up, it's a gold colour theme this yr... very grand... hope to take a nice walk in town wif a special lady this yr... tat's my christmas wish this yr. hahaha.... =b

looking forward to the hantu trip... juz hope everything goes well... kept praying...

6mths past since my operation, 'A' division league has been postpone to March. let's hope i've enough time to prepare myself. And once again, fight side by side wif my Safsa mates again ~!
Praying for a fast recovery... hope my doctor give me permission to starting light training when i see him on 5th Jan...

PrayIng Hard.
H.MING

Da Pump - Christmas Night

a nice christmas video by my fav Jpop boyband, Da Pump

Cloudy and thundering Wednesday... hahaha.... might not be studying... parents can't afford... i dun wanna go for part-time... way too troublesome for me... haiz... wad to do....

H.MING

wad a tuesday.... rainy... so boring and tired...

i have a very bad and stupid habit... never think before i talk...
becos of this habit... a slip out of my mouth... i've made my fren cried...
i've said sorry... but... doesn't help...
can't forgive myself...

H.MinG

A NicE SonG By ChrIS BroWn, Say GoodBye. If U waN thE Song.Juz LeT mE kNw. i'll SeNd iT to U. heRe GoeS.

(Sigh) Look...we gotta talk
Dang, I know I know
But it's, it's just some things I gotta get off chest, alright?

Yeah. Woo, ooo, woo, ooo, woo, ooo
Listen

(Verse 1:)
Baby come here an' sit down let's talk I got alot to say so I guess i'll start by sayin that i luv you but you know this thing ain't been a walk in the park (for us) I swear it'll only take a minute you'll understand when i finish yeah and i don't want 2 see u cry but i don't want 2 be the one 2 tell u a lie so...

[HOOK]
How do you let go? when you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the doorWhen you're walking out, talk about it and
Everything I tried to remember to say
Just went out my head
So I'ma do the best I can to get you to understand
Cause I know!!

[CHORUS]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
'Cause I really don't feel the way i once felt about u
Girl it's not you, it's me
I gotta gotta figure out what I need oh
There's never a right time to say goodbye

(Verse 2:)
Girl I know your heart is breaking
And a thousand times I
Found myself asking, "Why? Why?"
Why am I taking so long to say this?
But trust me, girl I never
Meant to crush your world
And I never
Thought I would see the day we'd grow apart
And I wanna know...

[HOOK]
how do you let go? when you,
You just don't know? what's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Girl I hope you understand
What i'm tryna say.
We just can't go on
Pretending that we get along
Girl how you not gonna see that i'm hurt?

[CHORUS]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
'Cause I really don't feel the way i once felt about u
Girl it's not you, it's me
I gotta gotta figure out what I need oh
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

(Verse 3:)
Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
I, I just can't do it
Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
And sometimes it makes me wanna cry
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh [2x]
Do you hear me crying?
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh

[CHORUS]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
'Cause I really don't feel the way i once felt about you
Girl it's not you, it's me
I gotta gotta figure out what I need oh
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

hi all, it's been 2 weeks since my last post. as usual, still can't play ball... still not 100% fit to play, think my hope of representing SAFSA playing the 'A' division league has to abort in order to play better in the future. Teammates of SAFSA, i'm so so sorry. Ronglie... i'm really sorry... let's hope we'll have a chance to play again? really looking forward to tat...

everything have to be pushback, in order to play better and carrying less burden... have to be moer then 100% fit as last time... questions keep poping to my head everyday and nite. wad can i do after my army... have been thinking to study @ a poly, as for course... hoping to get into a course regarding electronics, i dun wish to go for electrical... felt tat, there's so few varities among electrical. as for basketball club? still haven't think of where to go yet... and still duno how to talk to ah san also... anyway... when tat happens then see how it goes ba... i dun even have the time to commit for anything except my work in my camp... so tired... tat i have to take mc today...

watched STEP UP on Saturday, a very very nice movie... after watching this movie... Roy jio me to go lock & pop dancing lessons wif me... haha... i'm fine wif it... juz tat i'm abit shy.. haha... anyway... after watching this movie... it inspires me to work hard... to achieve wad u wanna achieve... during the stage... even ur relationship wif ur frens... can get bad... choosing inbetween ur dreams and frens... yet this guy in the movie shows he can achieve his dream and @ the same time trying his best to maintain his relationship wif his buddy... it's a great movie... i dun mind watching it again... haha...

will post till here... will be back again.

H.MING

have lots of fun @ riverine last nite... haha... laughter and fun... it's was a very enjoyable friday nite... but today's saturday... staying @ home doing nothing... oh my god...! haha... went to my frens house to look after his dog while he's out for a appt... then reach home... slack for a moment then go out for dinner... then now juz came back having my dinner @ Mac alone... called up my frens... all not free... hehe... nvm lo... eat on my my own lo... i also can't force them to join me for dinner ma... it's a long time since i keep calling out my frens to join me for dinner... haha! this kind of timing... should be @ a basketball court packing up my stuff and go for dinner le... talking about basketball... it's been a very long time since i've played... since April.. once i off work... reach home... is rest rest rest... of cos, seeing ppl play... it's very very very tempting for me... but wad can i do...? lan lan suck thumb lo... hahaha!! resting resting and resting... time files... 8mths of resting period... treating it like a normal daily life... it's like... basketball doesn't exist in me... feel so free after work... staying @ home alone... watching tv... this isn't my life which i'm having in the past... but i'm used to it liao... but when i'm back to my usual lifestyle... haha... definately got probs... hahaha!!! well... think tat's all for now... post till here... will post again soon...

p.s: " wanna thank all ppl including (annoymous) who visited my blog and taking ur precious time seeing my post... and leaving a msg @ the tagboard... thank u all so much..."

H.Ming(-_-)
if i can start frm the beginning, starting frm whichever part of my daily life... i'll put in more and even more effort, time and love to the person or the things i wanna achieve.
luv u all... cya soon....

hao Lei ah... sunday nite dinner's @ the cineliesure hongkong restaurant... reach there 9pm... chit chat until 1am lehz... so many things to talk about... before the dinner... took neoprint... hahaha...

here are the pics guys... enjoy... oh ya... i've already maximize the whole thing liao... haha...

























CyA...
H.MinG (^ _ ^)

HeLLo... My TagBoard's got problem again... i can't see anything... can u guys/ladies see anything? haiz... problem lehz... EnNinGx... i'll need Ur Help fOr THis le... thanks....

So TirEd... Once back to work... my jobscope's been widen le...more work to do... dun even have the time to go for teabreaks... lunch is also abit difficult le... haiz... si bei stress... i'm only @ the learning stage only... already got so much load of work to do... can i really make it...? i still to need to attend my physio twice a week... how am i gonna finish my work on the day i've my physio... i'm so so busted... duno wad my Mdm gonna say...

it's been 7mths since i've played my last competition... how i've wish to play now... seeing frens play... i'm feel so eagered to play too... and i've put on 8kg le...!! how am i gonna lost 8kg lehz... so screwed up... morale's really very low now... damn...

by the time i've fully recovered... most of the national players would have stop playing already... really dun know if i've still got the motivation to aim for national team trail... i'm so so far behind... not really sure if i can keep up anymore...

Feel so low morale...
H.Ming (-_-)

3rd Oct, HappY 18th BirTHdaY to Sheryl...!!!
5th OcT, HapPy BirThday To HAnlIng and HapPy BirThday tO JinQianG...!!! haha...!!
6th Oct, HapPy BirThdaY to Ann..!! And HapPy BirThday To CelIne...!!
7th OcT, HapPy 21st BirTHdaY to WAnXia....!!!

TO EveRyonE, MAy UR WisH ComE TruE ~!!! aNd God BlEsS U~!! CyA All SoOn..!!


To QiYan And FeNGyI...

ThOUgh I've Say it OncE or TwiCe... i'll Still Say It AgaIn... COnGraTulAtiOns...!!
it'S TheIr Customary TOdaY ~! haha...!! thkx for letting me to be ur brother...!! hahaha... have lots of fun... even though everyone's tired... and Due to tHe HAzY WeatHer... yet all still pull through...!! haha...!!! EveRYonE RoCkz...!!!

BeSt WIshEs To Both Of U~!!



HellO EveRYOnE...!!!
it's a VerY HazY DaY... PSI reading was 143 when i last seen it... it'll might be still worsen as time comes... juz imagine tat i can't seen bukit timah hill from my house... very worst huh? anyway, to anyone whose sensitive to the haze... or sick due to the hazy weather... pls take gd care or urself ya? especially to those ppl i knw... playing for the inter poly-ite cup this coming week... playing bbaxn league on weekends... and the 7-11 cup also... if u guys aren't feeling well... pls... dun be stubborn and still play hor... i dun wanna go watch game and see any of my best frens panting like mad gasping for air... -.-" to the guys... GaRy... En NinG... i'm sorry tat i can't be there to watch ur game... as i'm on overtime duty on tues and thurs... i'll try to make it for the upcoming games if possible... and Debbie... sorry i can't make it for the game yesterday nite... Due To mY Base Anniversary DInner... hope u play well last nite...

lastly... to everyone whose playing in any upcoming competition... play hard and smart... even the slightest effort u put on/off the court... it'll be rewarded back for sure... juz be paitient... opportunity will be there... even if ur sch coach doesn't see it... the spectators will sure see it... Jia You EveRYonE...!!! TakE caRe anD Cya SooN...

oPps... one more last thing... EnNinGx... there's something wrong wif my tagboard le... haha... duno how to fix it... so have to come to u... sorry ah... and i can't access to ur blog too... did u change it? let me knw ya? if u dont't have the username and passwword to my acc. sms me too? thanks alot...!! (^_^)

ScRew wadEveR HAze tat's EfFeCtINg EveRyoNe...
H.MinG (^_^)

hello to all... finally back to camp le... lots of stuff to do once i've got back... loads of paper work... very tiring and boring... totally no mood to work @ all... still have 2nd round tomolo... si bei sianz... after my work... go watch Debbie's 1st game for the competition @ Republic Poly alone...
it's a gd game... gd fight... it's only the 1st game... so keep up the gd work... Debbie... juz play by instincts... well... tat's wad i do always... -.-" can't believe i can play until this level juz by instincts... muz be damn lucky... after the game then go home alone... si bei boring lehz... argh....!!! haven't eaten my dinner yet also... suckx... have to go find things edible ard my house liao... if not... have to stay this way till tomolo lunch in camp le... =(

tomolo will be gary's game... and en ning's game... Gd Luck to Both Of U~!! play hard... of cos... and play smart too... -.-" " and for Debbie's upcoming game... Gd Luck Too...! i'll try my best to be there for the games... juz do ur best... u'll have my mentally support... hahahaha!!! =p

wanna use this chance... to

Congratulate Qi Yan and FengYi... the New Wedding Couple... best wishes to both of u...!!! thanks for inviting me to the wedding dinner... and Qi Yan... thanks... for the glass of red wine... hahaha...!

HapPy BirThdaY to my "lil Sis" ShiHui... for her 20th birthday...! hope ur dreams come true soon...

lastly... to all children... a Very HapPy ChiLDrEn'S Day...!!

cYa SOoN...
H.Ming(-_-)

HaPpY 21St BirThday To SaRaH...!

Finally 21 lo... haha... take care always... and cya soon....!

HaPpY 25th BirThday TO PauLine...!

let's meet up wif the rest when there's a chance... cya sOon...!

God BleSS U all... take care...
H.Ming(-_-)

duno why... for this week... went damn super slow... feel so lonely... back in a place where's darkness... no light...

so lonely... yet sad... not sure why...i'm staying @ home all day... eating instant noodles... tibits.. drinking plain water... eating ice-cream...

feel so useless... feel so tired... pain... totally can't do anything... really wish this ends soon... otherwise... i'll be mentally dying of depression...

H.Ming(-_-)

hey... hey.... i'm back creating a post again... hahaha...

18th of Sept...
Congrats to Pauline... my ex-working college... R.O.M yesterday....! God bless u and ur husband... wish u all happy always...

Congrats to Joan... little "sister"... haha... Happy 21st Birthday ~!!! hahaha....

god bless u all...
H.Ming(^_^)

long time... since my last post... dun knw wad to say... wadda post... mind's in a blank... very very... tired... it's not cause of doing too much... or doing nothing... i missed my favourite basketball games.... it's like... a part of my life being taken away frm me... seeing ppl play... wishing how nice... if i would be one of them running up and down on the court... the feeling is juz so great... this makes me cherish basketball even more... really can't wait...

next week's physio... going to the gym for workout... wau... tat's great... finally some challenges... haha... can finally knw... wad's my limit...

10mths more... to my O.R.D, frens. family and relatives... kept asking me... "wad are u gonna do once u come out of army...?" my mind's a blank... BIG blank... and my ans to them is... "i'll take a step @ a time... cause i duno wad lies ahead of me..." Am i rite to say this...? or i should start planning now? i really duno... i also duno wad i really need now... it's so fustrating to think this... everyone of us has to go through this stage... where it'll be the toughest decision... 1 wrong step... it's gonna be a hard fall... i'm really scared...

oh ya... one of my best fren send me Jay Zhou's latest full album, "Still Fantasy"... Gary... Thank U~!!! I have listen to it... it's very nice... the most favourite is... well... the album is as nice as his previous album... haha... well... i shall stop here... to all ppl who knw me... luv u all... cya soon...

H.Ming(^_^)

A Song... Sang by Nick Lachey... "What's Left Of Me."

Watched my life pass me by
in the rearview mirror
Pictures frozen in time
are becoming clearer I don't wanna waste another day
Stuck in the shadow of my mistakes
yeah

'cause I want you
and I feel you
crawling underneath my skin
like a hunger
like a burning
to find the place I've never been
now I'm broken
and I'm fading
I'm half the man I thought I would be
You can have
What's left of me

I've been dying inside
Little by little
Nowhere to go
But goin' out of my mind
In endless cirlcles
runnin' from myself until
You gave me a reason for standing still

'cause I want you
and I feel you
crawling underneath my skin
like a hunger
like a burning
to find the place I've never been
now I'm broken
and I'm fading
I'm half the man I thought I would be
You can have
What's left of me

Falling faster
Barely breathing
Give me somethin' to believe in
Tell me it's not all in my head

Take what's left of this man
Make me whole once again

'cause I want you
and I feel you
crawling underneath my skin
like a hunger
like a burning
to find the place I've never been
now I'm broken
and I'm fading
I'm half the man I thought I would be
You can have
All that's left
Yeah, yeah, yeah
What's left of me

I've been dying inside you see
I'm going out of my mind
Out of my mind
I'm runnin' in circles all the time
Can you take what's left
Can you take what's left
Can you take what's left
Of me
Can you take what's left
Can you take what's left
Can you take what's left
Take what's left of me


H.Ming (-_-)

hihi everyone... to all my frens... long time no see le...!!(to those who didn't meet me recently or before my ops till now...) how are u...?! if u see this... sms me how u doing ya? will be looking forward to it...

i can't go clubbing for now... sorry guys... haven't recover much yet... hahaha... but... u can ask me out for lunch or dinner also can... =p buah hahaha....

last week... i received a very nice and sweet postcard frm my xiaomei... MeiHui... thanks for the card... it's very nice... very nice handwriting...( i didn't knw it till now... haha... sorry!!!) it really brightens up my day... whenever i see it... i can almost see it everyday lehz... don't play play... once wake up can see it liao... confirm cum chopz... hahaha....

my MC extended liao... till 30 sept... haha... everyday stay @ home... playing PS2... can't go out for long period... si bei sianz... means.... NO WIndOw SHopPing ~!!!! haiz...!! can't shop nvm... but can't play ball lehz... knn....!!! mentally... f**king depress now... can't even go swimming... haiz... si bei jiatlat lehz... wad to do sia... tell me~!!!! tell me ~!!!!!!! -.-" " "

mentally depress....
Praying for fast recovery....
H.Ming (-_-)

yo yo yo... i'm back again ~ buah hahaha.... Blog changed to a new skin... all thanks to my 80% brother... EN NinG....!!! THank U So MUCH ~!!!!

as for my back condition... i finally can start physio next monday le... man... juz can't wait ~!! juz can't to afford to waste anymore time doing nothing... i wanna get back to court again... to play... and fight together wif my frens on the court... it's a long time since i got the feeling of playing in a competition.... really miss the athmosphere... si bei suang... really miss playing wif my frens @ ytcc.... and my other mates too... hope can get back to court soon...!!

have alot of thinking recently... as i dun wanna commit for tagawa anymore... reasons?? no sense of belonging... it's not like it use to be... since after my op... deciding... if i can start all over again... hoping to play the S'pore Opens next yr... or accompany training in one of the clubs till i feel i'm fit again to represent the club to play in the next coming competition... still can't decide which club to go too... -.-" really need some advice to guide me through... haiz... i need a fresh start... but juz can't decide which path to move on....

Praying for Fast Recovery...
H.Ming (-__-)

i'm back blogging again~ my back's doing fine... juz feel some pain after sitting/standing for a long period... doctor says juz try to move abit more.... i've taken out the plaster pasted on my back... wau... very the gross nehz... haha...

for the past few days, watching the philps singapore cup 2006... seeing the pros playing on court... i can feel the inspiration... motivation... to play basketball again... seeing them play... i can feel tat... there's nothing impossible... even though we can't reach their standard... it doesn't matter... it's the passion tat keeps them moving on... and keep us moving on to the goals we wanna achieve... 9mths more... i wish to heal up fast... and get back to court.. and once more... fight to achieve the objectives i wan... juz can't wait to play wif the ppl i knw again... and playing against them too... they are the ones tat keeps my basketball passion alive till now...WAIT FOR ME guys...!! i'm rite behind...!! i'll catch up...!!!

my frens(Roy, Audrey, Xiuhan) and i went to Mount Faber on Sunday nite after watching the game, and eating wif kaili and fanny.... very nice scenery... cooling... and funny too.... haha... taking pics by the mer-lion... wah hahahaha!!! making funny expression @ other places... super fun... haha... hope we can do tat again.... i'll upload the pics here guys... and frenster also... haha...!! send me the rest ok?? thanks...!!! and Here We Go~!!!

hi guys... back from hospital... since last friday afternoon.... operation's a success... the rest will be up to me... haha... sorry for the late posting... juz tat... don't feel like blogging for the moment cause... my movement is very very limited... currently on MC till 25th August... gonna extend or not... depends on Doctor le...

wanna thank the ppl who came down to visit me and accompany me for the past last week.... my family and relatives... who came almost everyday... Uncle Joe... thank u for the presents... Uncle See Peng... thank u for coming... Ppl from Church Of Praise... thank u~! for praying for me... and also... wanna thank... Ronglie, my Safsa Captain for coming down... Kaili, Steven from Siglap... thanks for coming down.... Roy, Colin and Mars... thank u for coming down... and Jenny and Alice ~! the twin sisters... haha... thank u for coming down... Jason and family... thank u....!

Also... wanna thank my frens who sms me... the recovering greetings... thank u so so much...!

i maybe out for bball action for the moment... but i'll be back... wif a loud bang... wait for me ya ?!

wanna say sorry to my dearest younger "sis"... shihui... sorry for keeping from u... maybe till now u still duno la... haha... maybe when u see this... gif me a call? i'll let u knw my status? haha... don't be angry k? i'm sure u won't... haha... cya soon...

below... is the pic... injected on my hand... to inject the fluid drop... damn... suffering on that for 1st 3 days.... haha...



thank u guys... juz can't thank u all enough...

Praying to Heal...
H.Ming (-__-)

like the story? haha... "borrow" it from a gd fren of mine... got permission one of coz... =)

anyway... i'll going for surgery tomolo le... morning 7am... 1st member on the list... hahaha...
not sure how long i'll be hospitalize... hope it won't be long time... haha... confirm boring @ hospital.... if u're boring... can also come look for me loh... i confirm can keep u company too... hahaha...but call/sms me before u come k? looking forward to see u there, but dun look forward in seeing me in a gd state... i confirm in pain de... they roughly brief me after the ops... will have pain throughout the nite... haha.... see ya guys there...

"To Jesus, God... i pray... to gif me te strength... the might... the courage...to fight this battle... to win this battle...bless my family and relatives.... frens... and love one..."

crying and praying...
HM(-__-)

Let me share with you a story i heard:
A long time ago, there was a scholar who was very heartbroken cos the girl he loves very much was getting married to another man..

He was very sad that he lost all his hopes in life,

Suddenly, a monk walked up to him and passed him a mirror and asked him to looked into the mirror,
So he looked into the mirror...

In the mirror, he saw a dead girl and he was wondering who the girl was...
When a man appeared and saw the dead body, he do nothing and walked away.

After a while, a second man appeared and he saw the dead body and this man took off his clothes to cover the girl's body then he walked off.

Then a third man appeared and he saw the dead body and this man dug a hole and buried the girl.

The scholar doesn't understand what the whole thing was all about, so the monk told him that actually the dead girl was actually his girlfriend in her previous life, he was the second man who covered her up and now she was back to return him a gratitude she had for him, but the one she would married to, was actually the one who bury her.

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Any one of you understand the story?
In our life, we always thought we are the third person but maybe we are only the second one after all.
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Sometime in a relationship, maybe our love are not strong enough to hold us forever.

" God never leave you Empty, he will Replace everything you have lost. if he asks u to put something Down, its because He wants you to pick something Greater. Good Day. Smile God loves you. "

JeNny... thank u so so much ~!


PRayIng HArD...
H.Ming (-__-)

today's 23rd July... 8 days more... to surgery...
as news were spread ard my family and relatives... h.phone rang... asking wad happen... how am i...
when's the operation... time.... "i'll be there on the day..."

To mY relatives... to the ppl @ Church of Praise... Uncle Joe... really really thank u~!! I lUv u All...!! thank u SO mUch for the cONceRn to Me and my family ~!!! Pls Don't worry about me... pls help to worry my parents... they're are the ones... who's the most worried... no matter how i console them... talk to them... they still can't be relax a little bit... i knw they're are my parents... but they still need to face the problem... not running away... not taking so much time to face it... it'll affect their health... as they're ard nt in gd health ever since...

on the day on the surgery... once i'm in... being put to slp... during tat time... if u're coming down... pls help to console my parents? cause... wad they need is to relax themselves, let them knw... i'll be fine... things will be ok...

overall... i'm the one whose gonna stressed out... before and after the surgery... see my parents so worried... even i'm also worry tat they can't take it when i enter the surgery rm... after the surgery... confirm will see their worried looks... i'm not complaining lehz... juz tat... they need to cool themselve down tat's all....! haiz... talk is easy... when comes to doing it...? damn... u feel the challenge there....

really need some help here... too stress to handle...

crying and praying for help...
HM (-__-)

31st of July... will be the day i'll be pushed into a surgery rm...
everything's on preparation.... i dun worry for myself...
i'm juz worry about my parents once i fall aslp inside...
when i'm in there... i'm not praying for myself... i'm praying for my parents... not to be so worry...
Mom cried... Dad's worried... my aunts worried... uncles worried... grandpa worried... still keeping frm my grandma... dun wanna gif her the pressure... cause she's very old le...

rite now... i need a companion, my other half.... a person... to gif me a shoulder to lean on... to talk to... a person to care and concern for me... am i gifing a high expectation? but... tat's wad i wan frm a relationship... =)

will blog again once i'm out of hospital... anything msg me ya?
take care guys and ladies... =)
see u soon...

"To Jesus, God... i pray... to gif me te strength... the might... the courage...
to fight this battle... to win this battle...
bless my family and relatives.... frens... and love one..."

crying and praying...
HM(-__-)

EndUrINg Pain.... Day And NigHT....
GeTTinG MeNTally PRePArEd For OpeRatIon...
StayInG PosItIVe...

CrYInG FoR HelP...
H.Ming T___T

HapPy BirThday To Me.....

CrYinG For HelPz....
H.MinG (T__T)

well... it's the 5th of July, went for medical appt. yesterday afternoon... regarding my back... and told the doctor about my case... he examined... check my left leg... my back... and the finally conclusion from is... he suggested tat... i should go for a surgery... as he say... " it's not u make it worst... it juz starting to develop... and getting to a bad situation... if u dun wanna go for operation, the other option for u is to jab ur back wif steriod... to relieve pain and the swelling... but... tat's juz for temporary... and the best option is operation... "

hear liao... knn... how am i gonna tell tat to my parents sia...? the doc say tat... he will refer me to a spine surgeon... the spine surgeon will give me a better ans and a better explanation... and tell me tat... to get my parents/relatives there... to get a 1st hand news from the spine surgeon... so... i called up my aunt instead of my mum... cause my mum sure nag non-stop onez... haha... then further more... i duno how to explain to my parents too... -.-" "
so.... lucky... my aunt is free on the 14th July... tat's a Friday... and... we shall see if there's a need for surgery...

rite now... the numbness of my toes are spreading... now... it's spread to the area juz beneath the toes... everytime i wear my shoe or boots... the numbness is always there... haiz... sianz.... doc says... if there's more numbness... more weakness or more unbearable pain on ur leg... PLS REPORT STRAIGHT TO A&E department....!!! cause it's serious...
i dun wish to report... and HOPEFULLY i dun~!!! cause... birthday's coming... this saturday 8th July... but on friday... i'll juz hang out @ Obar... dun get drunk... hopefully my frens will be there cause i only inform Steven and Moon (my da ge and da jie) to join me there... and hope it will be a gd and enjoyable one.... anyone whose going down on friday nite... come'on down if u can... hope to see u there ~!!!

crying for help...
H.Ming (T__T)

anyway... here's the fixtures for my games... as for other clubs playing... juz sms me or msg me ba... i'll let u knw... the worst thing is!!! knn... i have to play on my birthday(8th July) somemore... super sux...

4th July - Siglap vs Tagawa - 730pm
8th July - Tagawa vs Yuhua RC 2 - 730pm
15th July - Tungsan vs Tagawa - 845pm

Crying for Help...
H.Ming (T___T)

haiz... sianz lehz... didn't get to contribute much for the Yuhua Cup... super sux man... after the 1st game against Eng Tat Hornets... go home then go fren house watch world cup... and a few days later... i can't feel my left toes... i'm so frighten... few days laters.. i can feel it again. now... i can't exert too much strength on my whole left leg... can't even walk a short distance... after walking a short distance... the pain of my left leg was so intense... it's not the muscle pain... it's the nerve tat cause the whole thing... it's so painful tat it almost make me cry... can't have a gd slp... can't have a gd relaxation... see chinese doc, getting the treatment also can't help much... i'll be going to see another doc tomolo nite... tat's my only last hope le... haiz... keep thinking back... why am i the one who suffer the most during the competition... injuries everywhere... juz can't be injury free... this makes me wanting to give up playing competitive... feeling so low now... so lost... duno wad muz i do... My dream of getting into the national team... is getting further and further away from me... i'm really not sure if i can still play competitive again wif my injury... i'm really afraid... so afraid... really wish there's a miracle doctor to heal up back injury... -.-" " ... haiz... i'm thinking too much le... there's no such thing in life...

Crying for Help...
H.Ming (T___T)

Uncle Yam ~!!!!

Thank U ~!!! For KeepIng my JerSey and WasHinG It FOr mE ~!!!!
THANk U tHAnk u~!!!
i'm ReallY Not In Gd @ WorDs... i Can OnlY SaY...

THANK U~!!! MISS U ALWAYS ~!!!
R.I.P UNCLE YAM

even since i'm out of the national team training squad... going out wif frens for gathering... playing bball etc... etc...
i personally felt tat... our distance... are getting further... maybe i'm thinking too much... or... it's juz tat... it's a long time since i hang out wif them... i'm feeling so so far apart from them... things among them also happened... yet i duno wad it is... i still have to ask one by one... wad's going on... wad's happen now... ever since the Yew Tee Cup has finished... ytcc has been so quiet... it's like dead... only less then 10 ppl came down today... play until 830pm then pack up go home liao...

received news from jiaren and yunyun... uncle Yam has passed away today... i felt very sad... duno wad to say... juz... very sad... very sad...

SIgn off...
HM(T___T)

so Sad... AftEr LaSt ThUrsDAy NaTIonaL TraInINg, The "ang Mo" CoaCH SayS tat... i DiDn'T MakE it TO thE FinaL 18 PpL in THe SQuaD... hEaRd LiaO... SI bEI LosT... SupEr Low MOrAle... OtheRs Juz DoiNG tHEir WaRM-dOwn, WHilE I juZ UnTiEd My ShoElaCE... Go StraiGht To THe BAtHRm, TooK A SHowER And WEnT HomE... i'Ve BeEN TraIniNG WIf THem SIncE LaST DeCEmbEr... ThE fEElinG's LIke... All EfForTs Juz WenT DowN To tHe DRaIn... Juz An INsTaNt... So SaD... Juz Can'T BeLiEve I din EveN mAke It in THe FinAl 18... Now i THink I Can'T EveN ApPly For POly liao... EveRYThinG Juz TurN Out So SO BaD... WaY Off The CHaRts... NotHing'S Gd EvEr SIncE thE STaRT oF The Mth Of JUne... HaiZ....

It'S BeEn AbouT A WeEk SIncE i Got "kicked OuT"... -.-" " " GoiNG HomE... WaTCh Tv... Then GO jogGIng... TakE A WAlk OUtSidE... noW I kNw life'S So BOrinG WhEn u'Re noT WorKing HArD For SomeTHing... TOtaLly No AChieVEmeNt... No MOtIVaTion... eVERyTHinG SeeMS So lOSt TO me... I NeveR FeLT likE ThiS BEFOrE... it's SO WEirD... LIkE... I dunO WaD To Do NExT... For Now... Juz HavE to TakE 1 Step @ a TImE... aNd SLowlY FInd My Way BAck... And HopE To GeT BAck TO thE NatIonal TraIL AGaIn... Ppl TolD me... I'm Still YounG... YEsh... I'm Still YounG... But... Do I GeT a 2nD ChAnCe? 3Rd ChaNCe...? We"ll See How... I'll FigHT BaCk... Juz U WaiT...

No MaTtER How HArD i TrY... HoW HArD i WOrK... hoW HarD I FigHT foR iT... I sTill Didn'T AChiEvE it... BUt... I'm Still BEinG MesmErized By The DreAM i WanA MakE iT ComE TrUE... Jia You...

SIgn OfF..
HM(T____T) CounTinG DoWn TO 8Th JulY...

TaKE CaRE...
MiSs Ya All...

CounTing DowN to 26th JUne... To MY 1 Yr NatIonal SerVIce... MOst Of my SenIorS in mY UniT HaS ORD lo... TIme PAsS SO QUicKly... To All My SeniORs... Gd LUck...!! All THe BEst ~!!!
anD CountINg DowN to 8th JulY... HahaHA... StiLL LonG... But... VerY FaST de LAz... Well... I didn'T MAkE it TO thE NAtiONal Main SQuAd... SO anGry ANd SaD... WHen THe NAmeLIst WAs NamEd OUt... DOesn'T HavE my NAme... feEl LIke CrYinG... Haiz... SI bEI SiaNZ... MoRAle Is TOtaLLy Way BEloW mEAsUreMENt... The AusTriaLIa CoaCH SaYS... i NEeD to Do MORe PHysICal CONdiTIoninG... Haha... "not FiT" ENougH... THen... OFf To THe GyM le... And Des Told Me i'm In The 18 PLayeRs NamELisT... Haiz... DIn't ExpECt TO bE in THe 18 SOmemORE... HahaA... diDn'T WenT To TraINinG SincE MonDay... DuE To NITe DUtY... and Didn'T TOUch BAll SInce SatuRday... caUse I SpraINEd My AnklE On fRIday's YT Cup... AnD LosT SomeMORe... Haiz... my lASt PAss... CauSe tHe WHolE ThinG Sia... SHijiE And I misCOmmUnicaTe... He SHow Me a "3" siGn... i THougHt It lEft 3secs... So I PAsS the BAll Out To Him... THougHt He'll Run TO 180 DegRees tHEn ShooT the 3poInt... buT didN'T ExPECt he was WAitIng fOR me @ 45DegRees... diaOz... Si BEi lOSt FORm Sia... ReallY LosT FoRm... Now my AnklE's Not FUllY REcOvEreD... HavE TO AtTEnd The TraINiNG TOnitE... Well... Juz SeE How IT gOEs Ba... I'm Tired AnD SupER MorALE Low...

SigNing OfF...
HM(T___T)

22 more days to my 1 yr NS service... 34 more days to my Day... time really flies...
Now ANd THeN... SO muCH THinGs HaD HapPen... YeT i Dun WiSH To TypE It OUt... Juz ThinK TaT... i'vE to SwOllOW DowN On MY OwN... EveN if I'm GonNa CrY... I'll Juz HidE In A CoRneR anD CrY QuieTly... Now MorE cOmmITmeNT... MorE ChallENgES... aRe On THe WaY... I MaYbE ReAdy... But... Will I WIn oR SUcCeSs In THe ChallENge... Time... Will TeLL...

HM(T___T)
TaKE CaREz...

Back AgIaN ~! SoRrY fOr ThE LoNG DuraTIon la... hAaHA... TirEd Ma... TraIniNg 4 DaYS A WeEk... VerY tHe XioNG One LEhz... CaN UNDeRsTanD Or NOT Sia... HahAaA~!!! JuZ KiDdIng La... NAhz JEfFeRy ~!!! i PosT Liao ~!!! hHAhaHA...

Juz ReaLLy Can'T THiNk WaD TO BloG la... EvERY 4 DayS TraInING tHEN Go WOrK... Can'T WaKE up SOmeMOre... AlWaYs LatE foR WorK and TraIniNG... ReaLLy DUnO wAd To Do SIa... AlARm ClOck SeT liaO AlsO Can'T WakE Up @ TAt TImE... SHiT Sia... SoMEtIme Really DUno IF i Can CopE iT... Wad'S MOre i'm SerVinG My NatIOnal SErVIce Sia... How TO CopE??!!

Juz LUckY i Dun A GirlFreN NoW... EvEn if i haVE onE now... Duno How TO AccOmpANy Her Sia.. OnlY AcCompAny Her On WEeKEnD... i'll AlsO FeeL PaISeH alSo... If LuckY Or WaD aH... Got a GirLFreN HoRz... WaH... POwER lIao... HaHA... HerE ComeS The PResSurE... HavE to ChoOSe... HAhahA...!!! Juz hoPE She'll Be A UNDeRstaNDinG Onez... Then Ho Seh LIaoz... EvERyTHinG Will Be GD To Talk WIf Le... As LonG aS i'vE The ComMItMEnt For Her... NO pRobLemz Man... PieCE oF CAkE ~! haHA... Now I dUN have A GIrLFreN... iF i'Ve One... I'll LeT U Guys KNoW la... hA.. i'm VerY SteADy ONe Horz...

ANyWAy... HErE aRe SOme PIcs I TooK MySelF DuRinG thE MtH... BuT... it'S A bIt Late La.. BuT... HoPe It's OkiE Wif U aLl Ba... All The PIcs ArE Not In SqUenCe... SorrY ah... Juz UPloaD WaDevER i SeE... HehHE -.-" "

This One Ah... TakE Ard LasT 2 WeEks... ON The WaY tO Go CLuBbIng... But.. IN tHE ENd... KanA Fly AeRoplANE... Haiz... LosT ForM TaT NitE Sia... DriNK AlonE In tHE Pub...

This ONe LeHz...IN SHadES Nehz.. DUn Play PLay... hAhaA... ToOk It dUring The LAbouR day... Go SENtoSa Sun Tan... hahaha... didN't TaN mUch... juZ Slp UndER tHE Sun foR The WHolE AfTerNooN Nia... -.-" "

Then This ONe... BEsIDe ME is JUNlin... One Of MY BuddIEs... HahA... NicE..? HeheE

ThiS Onez... BeSIdE Me... IS One OF The BEst NatIOnal CenTers In S'POre... he'S PArtHMAn... StaNDing @ 197.5cm... HahAh... TalL Horz?? Dun PLay pLaY.. He ChOke SlaM u THen U Knw THe POweR... HaHHA...

LAst buT Not LeAsT la... HaHA... BESidE Me... Is My "liTTle SIsTeR" HahHA ~!!! TakEn This @ YeW TeE FoODCourT... Juz BEsIde THe MRt... FinISh PlayING Bball THen GO theRE EaT SUpPeR... HAhaHA...

Tat's ALl lE la... JEFf... POweR mA...? 1 WholE SHoT... SuPEr Long POSt... HAhahA~!!! NoT hapPy... let Me KNOw On THurSdaY TrAinING... HAhAHa....

HM(T_T)

Hi EVeRyoNEz... SorRy AgaIn... For NOt PosTinG... HaHa... My YouNgeR BroTheR AlwaYs UsE ComPuTeR @ NItE anD FinISh UsIng TiLL LaTe NiTe... By THaT tIme... AlReaDY SlpIng le... hehehe...

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HAiz... THis MTh Will BE a RougH WeEK To CopE... 3dayS NATIonAL TrAinINg... 2 DaYs SAFsA lehz... DUnO How TO Plan My TIme Sia... LiKE TaT No TIme TO ACCompAny My FreNS lIao... Can'T Go Out @ NitE TO HavE Fun likE ALwAys le... haIz... =
WeLL... ShaLL StOP HeRE le... WIll POsT AgAIN ONcE i Got The ChanCe TO USe The COm AgaIn.. HahA

TakE CaRe EveRYonEz... MisS ya GuyS
LOve ya ~!! haha...!! CheEr~s ~! ^0^

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TO mY CloSe BelOved FrEn,
u'LL Be AlWays In Our HeaRtS...
AlwAys A VerY VeRY Gd FrEn Of uS...
We ReaLLy MisS u SO mUch...
GoD BLeSs...
ReST In PEAcE...
MiSs U ALwAYs...

i'm Back... heHe... Long TIme nO PosT le...

FInaLLy... DivIsion 1 LeagUe hAs FinAlly Come TO aN ENd To SafsA... Gd NEws iS... We REmAin In THe LEagUe... Bad NEws Is... WE ReMaIN THe SaMe SpoT As LasT Yr... haha... BuT aLL oF us HavE FUn... WIn anD LosE As A TeAm... TaT's All I HopE fOr...

We WoN TonGWHyE... By 12PoiNTs... EvEn We LosT... We StiLL ReMaIN The SaMe SpoT... So ARe ThEY... In The EnD... EVeRYOne Is A WinNer ba... haha...

TODaY... Juz CamE BAck FrM NATIonaL TrAInInG... CoaCH AnnOUNcE TaT... ToDay WilL Be His LASt DaY herE As A NATionAL CoACh... WaD A SaD EnDinG... Juz DIn'T ExPEcT hE'll LEfT so SOoN... But I DeFinaTelY LEArN ALoT AloT FrM Him... ReaLly... "COACH ~!!! THK U~!!!"

OnCe I REaCH HomE... JEnNy CaLLed... suRPRiSeD taT sHE CaLLeD Me @ tHIS Hr... But... JuZ dIn'T ExPEct... DIn'T EXPECT ~!!! SHe GaVe Me A BAd BAd NeWS... SO BaD...TaT I caN'T CrY... Juz A Big SHoCK in MY LIfE... JENnY TOlD mE OuR Best SeC Sch FeMalE ClaSsMaTe, YanPinG... PAsSed AwaY... I Don'T TReAt It As A JOkE... CauSE... JeNnY won'T TakE TIs KinD Of MAtTer TO JokE Wif... YanPinG waS SucH A HAppY Go LUckY PeRSon... How CouLD THis HapPen???... HOW ?! HoW??!!! UpOn HeARinG The NEWs... I reaLlY Duno WaD TO do... WaD's The ReAsON BeHInD iT... it'S StIll UNknoWn... Now... i'm Juz So SaD... SO SaD... All JeNnY, ALicE anD I Can Do... iS waIt....

GoD BlEsS All Of Us And TO u, YanPinG.

HM T_T

heLo... last friday gOt CLuBbIng @ Obar... FUn... BuT... StEveN "SaBo" me... MaKE mE DrInk Tis AnD TaT SIa... DrUNk Till I DuNo HOW I GOt HOmE AnD WhO SEnd ME HoMe... ReaLLy DUno WaD HAPPen... MoOn SiT ThErE SeE me DrInk... waH... Da JiE BuAy StEaDY... DUNo How TO StoP StEvEN De... -.-" " " HeRe'S a PiC WhErE We TooK iT LasT FrIDaY... BuT... beFoRe GeTtIng DrUnk... hahaha... ReaLLy HavE FuN LasT FrIDay... lEt'S meEt AgaIn NexT FeW FrIdaYs... HaHa...

TAkE cArE.
HM >_<

i'm back... wah hahaha.... -.-" " we lost to Eng Tat on Sunday Nite... knn... damn the referees whoare refereeing our game... curses... DUnO WaD The FucK TheY'Re DOiNG in The LasT 2Mins Of The GaME... We FighT tIll So HArD To GeT BacK @ theM by LosIng 3PoiNTs... haiz... KnN... SomETimEs... We HoR... ReaLly DUn HavE The LuCK sIa... NExt Time... The SAmE ReFeReE Did ThIS STuNt AgAiN... I'll ThrEw The BbaLl ToWaRds The ReF's WhisTlE... wahahaha ~!!! if I gOT the ChaNCe... i'll dO It~!!! MaN... i'm SUcH A JErK isn'T It.... haha... well... Juz TypE It Out HeRe OnlY la... I'm Not TaT CRAZY To Do iT.... hahaha....

ThInk i'LL End HerE Wif A PHRaSe WOrDs For ThE DayZ ~ hahaha... i quite liKe ThiS OnE...

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HeRe U CoME, AnD TheRe U Go,
TrEAt Me WeLL, aNd TreAT Me ColD.
I ReaLLy Luv U sO, How Can I LeT Go......

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WoHoo... This One NiCe HOr... haha... DUn PlaY PlaY NEhz... RomANTic oNe Nehz...
TakE CaRe.
HM -_-

si bei tired.... duno wad to post... so i'll juz post down this song lyrics... it's a nice song... if u wan the song... tag the board to contact me... i send it to u...
si bei sianz... so lost and tired... didn't expect tat i drunk last nite and get me to this state.... haiz....

take Care
HM -.-


Sang by Ne-Yo, song name is So Sick.
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Gotta change my answering machine
Now tat i'm alone
Cuz rite now it says tat we
Can't come to the phone
And i knw it makes no sense
Caused u walked out the door
But it's the only way i hear ur voice anymore
It's been mths
And for some reason i juz
And i'm stronger then this
No more walking round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Crying over U
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^chorus^
And i'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said i'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't i turn off the radio?
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Gotta fix tat calender i have
tat's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more u
there's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of u
And ur memory
And how every song reminds me
Of wad used to be
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^chorus^
tat's the reason i'm so sick of love songs
so tired of tears
so done with wishing u were still here
said i'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
so why can't i turn off the radio?
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leave me alone
don't make me think about her smile
or having my 1st child
let it go
turning off the radio
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^chorus^
Cuz i'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said i'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't i turn off the radio?
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^chorus^
Said i'm so sick of love songs
so tired of tears
so done with wishing u were still here
said i'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
so why can't i turn off the radio?
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^chorus^
And i'm so sick of love songs
so tired of tears so done with wishing u were still here
said i'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
so why can't i turn off the radio?
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heLlO EvEryOnez... ReaLly nicE taT U GuYs AnD LaDieS GoT CoMe VisIt MY BloG.... ThAnk U So MuCHx...!! CoMe By MoRe OFtEn K? I'll Try My Best To UpDaTe As OfTEn As I CaN.... HeHe...

I'm veRY TiREd... BaCK InJurY kEepS GiFinG Me ProBlemZ... DoC SaYs It'S a SLip DisC ToDay... If The PaIN GEts WOrsT In 6 WEEks... I'll HavE To CONsiDeRinG OF OpErATiOn... HEaRinG TaT Frm DOc... i'M sO SaD... SHoCk... ThiNkiNG oF THis.... SHouLd I caRrY One My NatiOnal TraInING.... i FOugHT SO HArD All THeSE MthS FoR THeSe AcHIvIeMentS... TrYinG TO KeEp Up... EaRn a PLAcE... ReAChIng MY Top PeAk... AM i ReaLlY NoT SUiTAbLe For PlayIng BAskeTBall... GoD... I'vE HavE SufFer LotS of ENcOUntErs... LuV... mY LifE... My INjurIes... WhY?! Muz I ReaLLY SUfFER to AcHIVe Gd ResULts? Gd LifE? gd ReLaTIonShiPs?... LeT Me TeLl U This!!! PpL May NoT BoRn TO Be A WINnEr... Or A lOSeR.... BUT ~!!! BUT~!!! PpL ARe BoRN Not TO QUiT ~!! TO FiGhT waD TheY beLieVe In... TaT's WaD i'm DO it RItE NOw... BLeSs ME.... i'm PRaYinG HaRD NiTe anD DaY... BeFORe StaRt OF BRaND nEw DaY... BeFOrE ComPEtItioN... i'Ll be PrayInG HaRD...

i'm ReaLLY TiReD TO FIgHT On... mY FrEns... My Luv ONes... AnD To THe PerSon WHo'S SpeCiaL to me... Pls Gif Me The StReNGtH To WIn THiS BATtLe... TaT I'll PraY... "AMEN"...

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TAkE CaRe.
HM -.-

hello again ~! It'S arD 2 WeEks siNce My lasT PosT le... WaH hahAhA... I'll TrY tO MAke It ShoRt AnD SWeEt K?

On The 2Nd ApRil... We WoN Our GamE AGaInsT Tungsan... well... EveRYone DiD Well la... JuZ GlAd taT... The TeaMWorK is TheRe... AnD... We StArtIng TO SlaCk DowN OnCe We GoT A Gd LeaD ThrOugHOut The GaME... TheN WHeN ApPoNeNTs ChaSe Up To A CLoSe LEAD... We'll StArT To PanIc anD can'T PlaY It Out... hahaha... BuT nVm... We'll MakE tHE nECessaRy ChAngEs If We HavE to...

ToDaY... We WOn our GaMe AgAinSt SinKeE.... i Was LatE foR The GamE... DUe To WorkIng TiMe... hahaha.... BuT NvM... EveN ThouGh PlayTimE is Less... As LoNG aS We WIn.... WHO CARES?! haha... We WOn As a TeaM... We LosT aS A TeaM... YeaH...

It'S BeEN aRd 4 Mths SInCe I waS NoMiNated tO TraIn Wif The NatiOnal TeaM... AnOthEr FeW WeEks MoRe... The FInaL namELisT Of The naTIonal TeaM... Will Be OUt... FeEl NerVous anD ExCitEd... haha... Who WilL bE the PpL Be SeLEcTed... EveN ThouGH i Don'T GeT SeLEcTEd... I knw I'Ve AlReAdy Gif My BEst To FIghT For A plaCe anD LeaRn EvERytHing I cAn...

ThInkIng bAck... Wad I'm DoiNG nOw... Is juZ... BaskETball... WorK... SLp...
abit AimLeSs Sia... WhEn I ORD... ConFIrM DiFFeRenT liao... hahaha...

TAkE CaRe
HM >_<