hello to all... finally back to camp le... lots of stuff to do once i've got back... loads of paper work... very tiring and boring... totally no mood to work @ all... still have 2nd round tomolo... si bei sianz... after my work... go watch Debbie's 1st game for the competition @ Republic Poly alone...
it's a gd game... gd fight... it's only the 1st game... so keep up the gd work... Debbie... juz play by instincts... well... tat's wad i do always... -.-" can't believe i can play until this level juz by instincts... muz be damn lucky... after the game then go home alone... si bei boring lehz... argh....!!! haven't eaten my dinner yet also... suckx... have to go find things edible ard my house liao... if not... have to stay this way till tomolo lunch in camp le... =(

tomolo will be gary's game... and en ning's game... Gd Luck to Both Of U~!! play hard... of cos... and play smart too... -.-" " and for Debbie's upcoming game... Gd Luck Too...! i'll try my best to be there for the games... juz do ur best... u'll have my mentally support... hahahaha!!! =p

wanna use this chance... to

Congratulate Qi Yan and FengYi... the New Wedding Couple... best wishes to both of u...!!! thanks for inviting me to the wedding dinner... and Qi Yan... thanks... for the glass of red wine... hahaha...!

HapPy BirThdaY to my "lil Sis" ShiHui... for her 20th birthday...! hope ur dreams come true soon...

lastly... to all children... a Very HapPy ChiLDrEn'S Day...!!

cYa SOoN...
H.Ming(-_-)

HaPpY 21St BirThday To SaRaH...!

Finally 21 lo... haha... take care always... and cya soon....!

HaPpY 25th BirThday TO PauLine...!

let's meet up wif the rest when there's a chance... cya sOon...!

God BleSS U all... take care...
H.Ming(-_-)

duno why... for this week... went damn super slow... feel so lonely... back in a place where's darkness... no light...

so lonely... yet sad... not sure why...i'm staying @ home all day... eating instant noodles... tibits.. drinking plain water... eating ice-cream...

feel so useless... feel so tired... pain... totally can't do anything... really wish this ends soon... otherwise... i'll be mentally dying of depression...

H.Ming(-_-)

hey... hey.... i'm back creating a post again... hahaha...

18th of Sept...
Congrats to Pauline... my ex-working college... R.O.M yesterday....! God bless u and ur husband... wish u all happy always...

Congrats to Joan... little "sister"... haha... Happy 21st Birthday ~!!! hahaha....

god bless u all...
H.Ming(^_^)

long time... since my last post... dun knw wad to say... wadda post... mind's in a blank... very very... tired... it's not cause of doing too much... or doing nothing... i missed my favourite basketball games.... it's like... a part of my life being taken away frm me... seeing ppl play... wishing how nice... if i would be one of them running up and down on the court... the feeling is juz so great... this makes me cherish basketball even more... really can't wait...

next week's physio... going to the gym for workout... wau... tat's great... finally some challenges... haha... can finally knw... wad's my limit...

10mths more... to my O.R.D, frens. family and relatives... kept asking me... "wad are u gonna do once u come out of army...?" my mind's a blank... BIG blank... and my ans to them is... "i'll take a step @ a time... cause i duno wad lies ahead of me..." Am i rite to say this...? or i should start planning now? i really duno... i also duno wad i really need now... it's so fustrating to think this... everyone of us has to go through this stage... where it'll be the toughest decision... 1 wrong step... it's gonna be a hard fall... i'm really scared...

oh ya... one of my best fren send me Jay Zhou's latest full album, "Still Fantasy"... Gary... Thank U~!!! I have listen to it... it's very nice... the most favourite is... well... the album is as nice as his previous album... haha... well... i shall stop here... to all ppl who knw me... luv u all... cya soon...

H.Ming(^_^)

A Song... Sang by Nick Lachey... "What's Left Of Me."

Watched my life pass me by
in the rearview mirror
Pictures frozen in time
are becoming clearer I don't wanna waste another day
Stuck in the shadow of my mistakes
yeah

'cause I want you
and I feel you
crawling underneath my skin
like a hunger
like a burning
to find the place I've never been
now I'm broken
and I'm fading
I'm half the man I thought I would be
You can have
What's left of me

I've been dying inside
Little by little
Nowhere to go
But goin' out of my mind
In endless cirlcles
runnin' from myself until
You gave me a reason for standing still

'cause I want you
and I feel you
crawling underneath my skin
like a hunger
like a burning
to find the place I've never been
now I'm broken
and I'm fading
I'm half the man I thought I would be
You can have
What's left of me

Falling faster
Barely breathing
Give me somethin' to believe in
Tell me it's not all in my head

Take what's left of this man
Make me whole once again

'cause I want you
and I feel you
crawling underneath my skin
like a hunger
like a burning
to find the place I've never been
now I'm broken
and I'm fading
I'm half the man I thought I would be
You can have
All that's left
Yeah, yeah, yeah
What's left of me

I've been dying inside you see
I'm going out of my mind
Out of my mind
I'm runnin' in circles all the time
Can you take what's left
Can you take what's left
Can you take what's left
Of me
Can you take what's left
Can you take what's left
Can you take what's left
Take what's left of me


H.Ming (-_-)

hihi everyone... to all my frens... long time no see le...!!(to those who didn't meet me recently or before my ops till now...) how are u...?! if u see this... sms me how u doing ya? will be looking forward to it...

i can't go clubbing for now... sorry guys... haven't recover much yet... hahaha... but... u can ask me out for lunch or dinner also can... =p buah hahaha....

last week... i received a very nice and sweet postcard frm my xiaomei... MeiHui... thanks for the card... it's very nice... very nice handwriting...( i didn't knw it till now... haha... sorry!!!) it really brightens up my day... whenever i see it... i can almost see it everyday lehz... don't play play... once wake up can see it liao... confirm cum chopz... hahaha....

my MC extended liao... till 30 sept... haha... everyday stay @ home... playing PS2... can't go out for long period... si bei sianz... means.... NO WIndOw SHopPing ~!!!! haiz...!! can't shop nvm... but can't play ball lehz... knn....!!! mentally... f**king depress now... can't even go swimming... haiz... si bei jiatlat lehz... wad to do sia... tell me~!!!! tell me ~!!!!!!! -.-" " "

mentally depress....
Praying for fast recovery....
H.Ming (-_-)

yo yo yo... i'm back again ~ buah hahaha.... Blog changed to a new skin... all thanks to my 80% brother... EN NinG....!!! THank U So MUCH ~!!!!

as for my back condition... i finally can start physio next monday le... man... juz can't wait ~!! juz can't to afford to waste anymore time doing nothing... i wanna get back to court again... to play... and fight together wif my frens on the court... it's a long time since i got the feeling of playing in a competition.... really miss the athmosphere... si bei suang... really miss playing wif my frens @ ytcc.... and my other mates too... hope can get back to court soon...!!

have alot of thinking recently... as i dun wanna commit for tagawa anymore... reasons?? no sense of belonging... it's not like it use to be... since after my op... deciding... if i can start all over again... hoping to play the S'pore Opens next yr... or accompany training in one of the clubs till i feel i'm fit again to represent the club to play in the next coming competition... still can't decide which club to go too... -.-" really need some advice to guide me through... haiz... i need a fresh start... but juz can't decide which path to move on....

Praying for Fast Recovery...
H.Ming (-__-)

i'm back blogging again~ my back's doing fine... juz feel some pain after sitting/standing for a long period... doctor says juz try to move abit more.... i've taken out the plaster pasted on my back... wau... very the gross nehz... haha...

for the past few days, watching the philps singapore cup 2006... seeing the pros playing on court... i can feel the inspiration... motivation... to play basketball again... seeing them play... i can feel tat... there's nothing impossible... even though we can't reach their standard... it doesn't matter... it's the passion tat keeps them moving on... and keep us moving on to the goals we wanna achieve... 9mths more... i wish to heal up fast... and get back to court.. and once more... fight to achieve the objectives i wan... juz can't wait to play wif the ppl i knw again... and playing against them too... they are the ones tat keeps my basketball passion alive till now...WAIT FOR ME guys...!! i'm rite behind...!! i'll catch up...!!!

my frens(Roy, Audrey, Xiuhan) and i went to Mount Faber on Sunday nite after watching the game, and eating wif kaili and fanny.... very nice scenery... cooling... and funny too.... haha... taking pics by the mer-lion... wah hahahaha!!! making funny expression @ other places... super fun... haha... hope we can do tat again.... i'll upload the pics here guys... and frenster also... haha...!! send me the rest ok?? thanks...!!! and Here We Go~!!!

hi guys... back from hospital... since last friday afternoon.... operation's a success... the rest will be up to me... haha... sorry for the late posting... juz tat... don't feel like blogging for the moment cause... my movement is very very limited... currently on MC till 25th August... gonna extend or not... depends on Doctor le...

wanna thank the ppl who came down to visit me and accompany me for the past last week.... my family and relatives... who came almost everyday... Uncle Joe... thank u for the presents... Uncle See Peng... thank u for coming... Ppl from Church Of Praise... thank u~! for praying for me... and also... wanna thank... Ronglie, my Safsa Captain for coming down... Kaili, Steven from Siglap... thanks for coming down.... Roy, Colin and Mars... thank u for coming down... and Jenny and Alice ~! the twin sisters... haha... thank u for coming down... Jason and family... thank u....!

Also... wanna thank my frens who sms me... the recovering greetings... thank u so so much...!

i maybe out for bball action for the moment... but i'll be back... wif a loud bang... wait for me ya ?!

wanna say sorry to my dearest younger "sis"... shihui... sorry for keeping from u... maybe till now u still duno la... haha... maybe when u see this... gif me a call? i'll let u knw my status? haha... don't be angry k? i'm sure u won't... haha... cya soon...

below... is the pic... injected on my hand... to inject the fluid drop... damn... suffering on that for 1st 3 days.... haha...



thank u guys... juz can't thank u all enough...

Praying to Heal...
H.Ming (-__-)

like the story? haha... "borrow" it from a gd fren of mine... got permission one of coz... =)

anyway... i'll going for surgery tomolo le... morning 7am... 1st member on the list... hahaha...
not sure how long i'll be hospitalize... hope it won't be long time... haha... confirm boring @ hospital.... if u're boring... can also come look for me loh... i confirm can keep u company too... hahaha...but call/sms me before u come k? looking forward to see u there, but dun look forward in seeing me in a gd state... i confirm in pain de... they roughly brief me after the ops... will have pain throughout the nite... haha.... see ya guys there...

"To Jesus, God... i pray... to gif me te strength... the might... the courage...to fight this battle... to win this battle...bless my family and relatives.... frens... and love one..."

crying and praying...
HM(-__-)

Let me share with you a story i heard:
A long time ago, there was a scholar who was very heartbroken cos the girl he loves very much was getting married to another man..

He was very sad that he lost all his hopes in life,

Suddenly, a monk walked up to him and passed him a mirror and asked him to looked into the mirror,
So he looked into the mirror...

In the mirror, he saw a dead girl and he was wondering who the girl was...
When a man appeared and saw the dead body, he do nothing and walked away.

After a while, a second man appeared and he saw the dead body and this man took off his clothes to cover the girl's body then he walked off.

Then a third man appeared and he saw the dead body and this man dug a hole and buried the girl.

The scholar doesn't understand what the whole thing was all about, so the monk told him that actually the dead girl was actually his girlfriend in her previous life, he was the second man who covered her up and now she was back to return him a gratitude she had for him, but the one she would married to, was actually the one who bury her.

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Any one of you understand the story?
In our life, we always thought we are the third person but maybe we are only the second one after all.
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Sometime in a relationship, maybe our love are not strong enough to hold us forever.

" God never leave you Empty, he will Replace everything you have lost. if he asks u to put something Down, its because He wants you to pick something Greater. Good Day. Smile God loves you. "

JeNny... thank u so so much ~!


PRayIng HArD...
H.Ming (-__-)

today's 23rd July... 8 days more... to surgery...
as news were spread ard my family and relatives... h.phone rang... asking wad happen... how am i...
when's the operation... time.... "i'll be there on the day..."

To mY relatives... to the ppl @ Church of Praise... Uncle Joe... really really thank u~!! I lUv u All...!! thank u SO mUch for the cONceRn to Me and my family ~!!! Pls Don't worry about me... pls help to worry my parents... they're are the ones... who's the most worried... no matter how i console them... talk to them... they still can't be relax a little bit... i knw they're are my parents... but they still need to face the problem... not running away... not taking so much time to face it... it'll affect their health... as they're ard nt in gd health ever since...

on the day on the surgery... once i'm in... being put to slp... during tat time... if u're coming down... pls help to console my parents? cause... wad they need is to relax themselves, let them knw... i'll be fine... things will be ok...

overall... i'm the one whose gonna stressed out... before and after the surgery... see my parents so worried... even i'm also worry tat they can't take it when i enter the surgery rm... after the surgery... confirm will see their worried looks... i'm not complaining lehz... juz tat... they need to cool themselve down tat's all....! haiz... talk is easy... when comes to doing it...? damn... u feel the challenge there....

really need some help here... too stress to handle...

crying and praying for help...
HM (-__-)

31st of July... will be the day i'll be pushed into a surgery rm...
everything's on preparation.... i dun worry for myself...
i'm juz worry about my parents once i fall aslp inside...
when i'm in there... i'm not praying for myself... i'm praying for my parents... not to be so worry...
Mom cried... Dad's worried... my aunts worried... uncles worried... grandpa worried... still keeping frm my grandma... dun wanna gif her the pressure... cause she's very old le...

rite now... i need a companion, my other half.... a person... to gif me a shoulder to lean on... to talk to... a person to care and concern for me... am i gifing a high expectation? but... tat's wad i wan frm a relationship... =)

will blog again once i'm out of hospital... anything msg me ya?
take care guys and ladies... =)
see u soon...

"To Jesus, God... i pray... to gif me te strength... the might... the courage...
to fight this battle... to win this battle...
bless my family and relatives.... frens... and love one..."

crying and praying...
HM(-__-)

EndUrINg Pain.... Day And NigHT....
GeTTinG MeNTally PRePArEd For OpeRatIon...
StayInG PosItIVe...

CrYInG FoR HelP...
H.Ming T___T

HapPy BirThday To Me.....

CrYinG For HelPz....
H.MinG (T__T)

well... it's the 5th of July, went for medical appt. yesterday afternoon... regarding my back... and told the doctor about my case... he examined... check my left leg... my back... and the finally conclusion from is... he suggested tat... i should go for a surgery... as he say... " it's not u make it worst... it juz starting to develop... and getting to a bad situation... if u dun wanna go for operation, the other option for u is to jab ur back wif steriod... to relieve pain and the swelling... but... tat's juz for temporary... and the best option is operation... "

hear liao... knn... how am i gonna tell tat to my parents sia...? the doc say tat... he will refer me to a spine surgeon... the spine surgeon will give me a better ans and a better explanation... and tell me tat... to get my parents/relatives there... to get a 1st hand news from the spine surgeon... so... i called up my aunt instead of my mum... cause my mum sure nag non-stop onez... haha... then further more... i duno how to explain to my parents too... -.-" "
so.... lucky... my aunt is free on the 14th July... tat's a Friday... and... we shall see if there's a need for surgery...

rite now... the numbness of my toes are spreading... now... it's spread to the area juz beneath the toes... everytime i wear my shoe or boots... the numbness is always there... haiz... sianz.... doc says... if there's more numbness... more weakness or more unbearable pain on ur leg... PLS REPORT STRAIGHT TO A&E department....!!! cause it's serious...
i dun wish to report... and HOPEFULLY i dun~!!! cause... birthday's coming... this saturday 8th July... but on friday... i'll juz hang out @ Obar... dun get drunk... hopefully my frens will be there cause i only inform Steven and Moon (my da ge and da jie) to join me there... and hope it will be a gd and enjoyable one.... anyone whose going down on friday nite... come'on down if u can... hope to see u there ~!!!

crying for help...
H.Ming (T__T)

anyway... here's the fixtures for my games... as for other clubs playing... juz sms me or msg me ba... i'll let u knw... the worst thing is!!! knn... i have to play on my birthday(8th July) somemore... super sux...

4th July - Siglap vs Tagawa - 730pm
8th July - Tagawa vs Yuhua RC 2 - 730pm
15th July - Tungsan vs Tagawa - 845pm

Crying for Help...
H.Ming (T___T)

haiz... sianz lehz... didn't get to contribute much for the Yuhua Cup... super sux man... after the 1st game against Eng Tat Hornets... go home then go fren house watch world cup... and a few days later... i can't feel my left toes... i'm so frighten... few days laters.. i can feel it again. now... i can't exert too much strength on my whole left leg... can't even walk a short distance... after walking a short distance... the pain of my left leg was so intense... it's not the muscle pain... it's the nerve tat cause the whole thing... it's so painful tat it almost make me cry... can't have a gd slp... can't have a gd relaxation... see chinese doc, getting the treatment also can't help much... i'll be going to see another doc tomolo nite... tat's my only last hope le... haiz... keep thinking back... why am i the one who suffer the most during the competition... injuries everywhere... juz can't be injury free... this makes me wanting to give up playing competitive... feeling so low now... so lost... duno wad muz i do... My dream of getting into the national team... is getting further and further away from me... i'm really not sure if i can still play competitive again wif my injury... i'm really afraid... so afraid... really wish there's a miracle doctor to heal up back injury... -.-" " ... haiz... i'm thinking too much le... there's no such thing in life...

Crying for Help...
H.Ming (T___T)