It's been a week since I last saw u darlings!!! I'm so happy like crazy when I see y'all!!!! So healthy and fat!!! Hahaha! Manage to get some nice photos of y'all too! Been looking at them over and over whenever I'm free, I miss y'all so so much. =) Evelyn's been very kind to take photos of me fooling ard with u darlings, couldn't thank her enough! =) gonna cherish those moment with y'all. U darlings simply... Simply brighten up my mood without fail! =) love u all darlings. =)

Oh dear... 3mths since I last visit u all? I miss u all very much. Can't wait to hug u fluffy darlings when I see y'all! Been busy with work & competition for the past few mths. Wanted to go visit u darlings during last weekend but... Nvm... I will try to make time to visit u! Love u all very much. :')

What was I thinking...? Why did I behave and react to things so immature...?

I want you to know how I feel, but I don't wanna tell you & screw things up.

Everything i have is yours, u don't have to go cold or hungry.

I'll be there when u're insecure, let you know that you're always lovely.

Cause you're the only thing that i got right now.

One day when the sky is falling, i'll be standing right next to u.

March of 2011, time flies. As the old saying goes, "time flies when ya having fun." well, not so bad though. Been busy working & training for these past few mths, sch's finally over. just have to wait patiently for the courses in NUS. Had a nice & peaceful Chinese New Yr, great to see the lil pups growing well, the other 2 pretty dogs doing well like always. Work's been gd, still miss my zoo guys & animals very much. This coming Wednesday is gonna be our 1st game of the NBL season, feel very excited. Even though our team struggled a lot more then last yr, hope we can get gd results & maintain as the same like last yr. next thing is, my national player status is over. i got cut, guess is due to poor performance. Well, i've tried... it's hard to manage while ya studying, working & training. i gotta say i've already gave my best in everything.

looking forward to challenge ahead & better things in this yr 2011. =)

" I'm sorry for everything I'm not, but I know that I love you with everything I am."

i nvr stopped loving u... i just stopped showing it...

been 2mths since i've last blog, time flies as it's already the mth of Dec. i miss the zoo very much, the ppl i've worked with & and the animals too. Great place with great ppl. Couldn't ask for anymore. Started my new job at NUS, nice ppl here, with a gd environment too. Just haven't seen the bad side of it yet, hope i'll nvr get to see it.

ETH started training last Friday, couldn't be there due to sch. Hope i ain't too late to catch up with the guys. Always feel a gap between us, find it hard to catch up with the pace. Just wanna maintain my level of game as gd as last yr, if i can exceed. Tat's a bonus. =)

Surprise to receive an SMS from Uncle Danny, it's been a long time we met since Grandma passed away. Dropping a msg saying to attend a gathering at his house at Sengkang on 26 Dec, looks like a road trip. Wonder who i'm gonna get to see over there, not really looking forward to it.

Christmas is around the corner, less then 2 weeks. Anyone celebrating Christmas this yr? Any wishes? =)

mine... will be... wishing *holding ur hand, walking down with me to see the Christmas Lightings in town area. A gd dinner... walk around... just the both of us...* sounds too much? maybe a lil.

Enjoy ur Christmas everybody, signing off. =)

Been almost a mth plus since I updated this blog... Now... Currently using my BB to blog a post here. First... The bastard jerk who stole my phone... Used my line to make 7 transactions of sms online credits... Worth $520... Now Singtel only will be able to pay out only a $168 while the rest have to pay myself... That's so freaking unfair... Hope they're at least to pay a lil more... T_T

Secondly, I got a new job at NUS medicine dept as a Lab Technologist... Pay's slightly better... Near my sch... Pretty gd I guess... Starting work on the 22nd next mth... During this time... Will be clearing my Annual Leave next mth till my last day of work... Really gonna miss the ppl working there... And the animals as well... Will nvr forget what I've been through there... The ups and downs... Worth thinking back... =)

It hurts... It really hurts...

this mth of August... was the worst ever... can't cope with sch work, car accident... phone got stolen...
wanna end this mth quickly... seriously... T_T

u're not the only one who's upset when u think about it... Till now I still wish we're still together... Loving each other... But think u don't wanna get back together again...

rushing lab report... not knowing gonna submit on Friday... gonna stay up the whole night to finish and don't even know where to start...

next Thursday is re-exam of 'A' Maths... haven't even started studying... so many to revise...

I've failed all my Biology Semester Test... lowest in class... feel so fucking pathetic...

at this rate... should i even carry on to study????

as for work... so what if i got promoted??? pay now... $1480... big deal... what's worst? no yearly increment... 6mths since the Giant Panda Project Interview... till now still no news yet! Can i hang on?? give me a hint personally...!!! rumors are bullshit...!!! i need news from management!!! at least i know there's something for me to hang on to!!!

life's so screwed up... totally screwed up...

got into car accident... on saturday... dun wanna talk about how it happen... parents know about it... gotten angry... blaming & insisting that i talk on the phone while driving... I DIDN'T!!!!! till now still nagging all over... i'm so sick and tired of it... didnt slp for the past 2 nights... kept having the images in my head... really need to find a place to hang out at till late night, make sure they slp first before i step into the house... to save myself from the nagging...

happen to saw baby's twitter status on my phone this morning, she fainted at home ytd morning... saying she's fine now... so relief she's doing fine now... heartbeat pumped freaking fast... then saw her another status... sayin "u were not there when i needed u, i'm really disappointed and upset... i was all alone... =(((" who's she refering to? guess she already with someone else... no matter how hard i tried to give her my all, the attention, care & concern... i won't be able to have her back by my side...

i miss u... gd nights...

Had a car accident last night... A sway thing to happen... Hit onto a 'P' plate driver somemore... what's worst... when I parked to one side... Police drove pass and stop... Knn... Can't be even more sway... -_- now no car to drive... Suck... Can't travel everywhere... Went to see doctor 5am in the morning, couldn't slp at all...

Baby's attending the serve beer and mingle event at chong pang camp, saying that it's a small 4hr events. And she needs the quick cash, telling me she will be fine, as she know the ppl there. I dun like her doing this serve beer and mingle, cause I couldn't stand guys "hugging" taking photos, or drink beer as she couldn't hold the beer that well. Guess that's part of the job? Makes me worried very much, doesn't mean u know the ppl means nth will happen... But in the end, she needs this job to get the quick cash. Hope she let me know she's doing fine, I can send her back even though I had no car, but at least when I sent her home, knowing she reach home safe & sound.

Miss ya. =)

Time to start work... Will blog again ltr tonight... Gd morning...

Got a letter from my curator ytd afternoon... Saying i got promoted... But... I'm not happy about it... Not looking forward to it either...

Aug 19th... Re-test for 'A' Maths... Aug 11th... Biology Semester Test... How to study...?! Really duno how... At least... Thankfully... Off season...

I've failed my 'A' Maths module... Gonna go for re-sit... Failed by 3marks... So frustrating... Struggling on my Biology module as well, as I don't have a gd background on basic science... Working also very physically tired as well, thankfully it's off season at the moment... At this current situation... Not too sure if I shld quit sch, it's so tiring & hard to management... Really scare I can't cope... It's hard... But I have to keep trying... Keep pushing...

If everything's change...
Remember me...
How did I fall in love with u...

It hurts so much... That every time my heart beats... It gave a sinking feeling...
Everything I do... Reminds me of u...

I miss u...

:'(