Angry sia...

tonite's game against tongwhye... i played for the 1st quarter... as a starter... mind set... to front parthman... do not let him have any chances to get the ball... not saying i "tua kang" or wad... i really put up alots of effort to juz front him... didn't include running up and down... knn... front liao... no help side sia... pcb... so pissed off... really pissed off... about the ending of 1st quarter... coach from outside... yelling @ me... "stick to him... stick to him~!!!!" knn... i'm trying to physically push him from the 3point line onwards lehz... knn... think it's easy ah... i still have to front him somemore lehz...

wif my back injury... fronting him... damn... enduring the pain while doing it... on the court thinking... "why am i doing this?!" "wad am i doing this for?! for who?!" "juz to win ~! as i dun wan our training efforts to be wasted... we can do this ~!" "nothing else... cause i so wanted to win every game i played in the NBL division".... 1st quarter ends... kana yelled by coach... "stick and front him ~!!! wad are u doing out there?!" hearing coach said this... i juz walked away and sit down... i knw it's not rite... but i can't say back... juz sit down... and didn't played for the remaining 3 quarters including the OverTime... and lost 93 to 89... Game ends.... when shaking hands... same feeling came back... so so so pissed off... really almost almost cried out... haiz...

now i'm thinking... "why am i doing this?! wif my back injury... i can rest... yet i still fight all the way juz to win and have fun... frens kept saying... u still got a long rd to go... why risk it?!" in my mind "yesh... it's a long rd... it's juz a starting of it... to win for the team..."

HM.....