22 more days to my 1 yr NS service... 34 more days to my Day... time really flies...
Now ANd THeN... SO muCH THinGs HaD HapPen... YeT i Dun WiSH To TypE It OUt... Juz ThinK TaT... i'vE to SwOllOW DowN On MY OwN... EveN if I'm GonNa CrY... I'll Juz HidE In A CoRneR anD CrY QuieTly... Now MorE cOmmITmeNT... MorE ChallENgES... aRe On THe WaY... I MaYbE ReAdy... But... Will I WIn oR SUcCeSs In THe ChallENge... Time... Will TeLL...

HM(T___T)
TaKE CaREz...

Back AgIaN ~! SoRrY fOr ThE LoNG DuraTIon la... hAaHA... TirEd Ma... TraIniNg 4 DaYS A WeEk... VerY tHe XioNG One LEhz... CaN UNDeRsTanD Or NOT Sia... HahAaA~!!! JuZ KiDdIng La... NAhz JEfFeRy ~!!! i PosT Liao ~!!! hHAhaHA...

Juz ReaLLy Can'T THiNk WaD TO BloG la... EvERY 4 DayS TraInING tHEN Go WOrK... Can'T WaKE up SOmeMOre... AlWaYs LatE foR WorK and TraIniNG... ReaLLy DUnO wAd To Do SIa... AlARm ClOck SeT liaO AlsO Can'T WakE Up @ TAt TImE... SHiT Sia... SoMEtIme Really DUno IF i Can CopE iT... Wad'S MOre i'm SerVinG My NatIOnal SErVIce Sia... How TO CopE??!!

Juz LUckY i Dun A GirlFreN NoW... EvEn if i haVE onE now... Duno How TO AccOmpANy Her Sia.. OnlY AcCompAny Her On WEeKEnD... i'll AlsO FeeL PaISeH alSo... If LuckY Or WaD aH... Got a GirLFreN HoRz... WaH... POwER lIao... HaHA... HerE ComeS The PResSurE... HavE to ChoOSe... HAhahA...!!! Juz hoPE She'll Be A UNDeRstaNDinG Onez... Then Ho Seh LIaoz... EvERyTHinG Will Be GD To Talk WIf Le... As LonG aS i'vE The ComMItMEnt For Her... NO pRobLemz Man... PieCE oF CAkE ~! haHA... Now I dUN have A GIrLFreN... iF i'Ve One... I'll LeT U Guys KNoW la... hA.. i'm VerY SteADy ONe Horz...

ANyWAy... HErE aRe SOme PIcs I TooK MySelF DuRinG thE MtH... BuT... it'S A bIt Late La.. BuT... HoPe It's OkiE Wif U aLl Ba... All The PIcs ArE Not In SqUenCe... SorrY ah... Juz UPloaD WaDevER i SeE... HehHE -.-" "

This One Ah... TakE Ard LasT 2 WeEks... ON The WaY tO Go CLuBbIng... But.. IN tHE ENd... KanA Fly AeRoplANE... Haiz... LosT ForM TaT NitE Sia... DriNK AlonE In tHE Pub...

This ONe LeHz...IN SHadES Nehz.. DUn Play PLay... hAhaA... ToOk It dUring The LAbouR day... Go SENtoSa Sun Tan... hahaha... didN't TaN mUch... juZ Slp UndER tHE Sun foR The WHolE AfTerNooN Nia... -.-" "

Then This ONe... BEsIDe ME is JUNlin... One Of MY BuddIEs... HahA... NicE..? HeheE

ThiS Onez... BeSIdE Me... IS One OF The BEst NatIOnal CenTers In S'POre... he'S PArtHMAn... StaNDing @ 197.5cm... HahAh... TalL Horz?? Dun PLay pLaY.. He ChOke SlaM u THen U Knw THe POweR... HaHHA...

LAst buT Not LeAsT la... HaHA... BESidE Me... Is My "liTTle SIsTeR" HahHA ~!!! TakEn This @ YeW TeE FoODCourT... Juz BEsIde THe MRt... FinISh PlayING Bball THen GO theRE EaT SUpPeR... HAhaHA...

Tat's ALl lE la... JEFf... POweR mA...? 1 WholE SHoT... SuPEr Long POSt... HAhahA~!!! NoT hapPy... let Me KNOw On THurSdaY TrAinING... HAhAHa....

HM(T_T)

Hi EVeRyoNEz... SorRy AgaIn... For NOt PosTinG... HaHa... My YouNgeR BroTheR AlwaYs UsE ComPuTeR @ NItE anD FinISh UsIng TiLL LaTe NiTe... By THaT tIme... AlReaDY SlpIng le... hehehe...

I wEnt WIf TOngWHye TO MalAcCa For a SMall COmpETiTiOn... AgaInsT the StatE TeaMs TherE... VerY NiCe ENviRomeNt.. Gd FacIliTies... Only THing iS the RefEreeS tHEre Don'T liKE uS TaT MUcH... -.-" 1st GamE of THe COmPetItiOn... 8 playErs Frm Our SiDe... FOulEd Out... CaN U BeLieVe Tat? and We LosT 50 PoiNTs... moRaLe SO lOw sia... 2nD GamE beTTer... LosT by 20 SomETHinG.. 3 plaYeRs FoulEd Out... 3Rd GaMe... No PlayErs FOulEd Out... But We WOn By 50 pOintS... hahaha... OVeRall For The COmPEtiTIon.. THink EVeRyOne ENjoY THemSelvEs la... BuT I ReaLLy EnjoY MYSelF haha... Juz Tat... tHeRe's NothINg TO shOp For mY CloSe FReNs JialIn And YIngQi... SorRY LadIEs ~!!!

The TrIp toOk 6HRs To ReaCh The PLaCE We StaY... WheN We ReaCH... we'Re StayIng In a ApArTMenT... CouplEs ShaRed a ApArTMenT... SInglEs... of cos... Stay in One ApArTmeNT la... hahaha... And FouND OUT taT... JuZ ACRoSS tHE StReEt... TherE's No 24hrs GrOceries StOre... No SHoPPinG CeNTrEs... JUz.... One WHoLe StrETcH Of PUbs and DIsCos... Man... reaLly LosT Form Sia... JuZ ImAgIne... it's ABouT a FeW "MOhAmaD SuLTaN" Sia... OnlY NitE Time TheN GoT LiFe TheRe... WAh HahahA... TheN oKaY lo... We @ NitE Go Pub DRiNk on The 2nD NiTe... 1 TaBlE... We ORdEred 38 laRge BoTTles of TIgeR beER... hAhaA... CoaCh PaID tHe 1st 18 BotTles... WHile ROy anD I PaiD tHE Rest... DriNK tIll We ScaRed AlrEaDy... hahaha... ReallY FunnY Sia... AlMosT EVeryonE's FacE WEnT ReD In COlOur... hahaha....!!! On The LAst DaY... We WenT HomE @ NitE ArD 10plus... TrIp ToOk aRd 5hrs To ReAcH s'PoRe... When I ReaCH HomE is AlrEadY 4Am PluS liaO... tHEn FoLLowIng Day StIll havE tO WOrk Sia... NO TIme TO sLp... UNPaCk My StuFF tHen ReSt For a LitTle WHilE thEn TakE a Cab To WOrk Liao... BuT I din'T WorK MucH la... Juz QuiCKly Find A ChanCe TO Slp if i Can.. hahaha!!

TueSDaY Was The 1st Day OF NatiOnal TraIninG... WheRe The CoaCH Frm AUstraiLia CamE tHe TraIN us... If wAs A Gd TraInInG... The COaCH ASkeD us If We ArE INTeRestEd in PLayINg FULL TIME PROFESSIONAL ~!!!! I AM~!!! buT hoW caN I ComMiT DUrIng MY NatiOnal SerVIce SIa... WaD a DiSaPPoINtMenT... DUrINg The 1sT TraInIng I ReaLLy LEaRnT aLOT... BuT... I can'T Go On THurSdaY... Got SOmethIng On @ CaMP... Have TO StaY Till ArD 830pm Then Can LeAve THe OFFice... By The TiMe I reaCH the traIninG GrOUnd... I No NEed TO TraIn liao... SO i DeCIdED NoT To AtTend THe tRaInING on THursDay and GIf mySelF fOR a Gd REsT... As I HurT my THigH MUScLE On TUeSday TraInIng... Can'T BenD... anD WaLk ProPErly... SO PaInFUl.... ='(

HAiz... THis MTh Will BE a RougH WeEK To CopE... 3dayS NATIonAL TrAinINg... 2 DaYs SAFsA lehz... DUnO How TO Plan My TIme Sia... LiKE TaT No TIme TO ACCompAny My FreNS lIao... Can'T Go Out @ NitE TO HavE Fun likE ALwAys le... haIz... =
WeLL... ShaLL StOP HeRE le... WIll POsT AgAIN ONcE i Got The ChanCe TO USe The COm AgaIn.. HahA

TakE CaRe EveRYonEz... MisS ya GuyS
LOve ya ~!! haha...!! CheEr~s ~! ^0^

hello EVerYonEz... SoRrY... Din'T PuT Up a PosT ReCeNtlY... HaHA... CaUsE DiN'T GeT To USe The Com TheSE FeW NItEs... haha...

WeLL... NOtHinG MUcH HApPen ReCEntLy lA... BuT... Gd NEwS Is... I reCeIveD a LeTtEr Frm Basketball Association of Singapore (BAS), SaYinG taT... i'VE BeEn INViTeD to The NAtIONAl MEn'S TraInInG TraiL... haHa... NoW... AnoTheR ChaLLenGe Is Up... FIghT FoR a PlaCe In THE 18 Men TeaM... HaHa... TouGh ChALLeNge... BuT... i'M GonNA FigHT fOR All I CaN TO GeT a PLAce... EveN If I doN'T SeLeCtEd... At LEaST i'M SaTisFIeD TaT... i'Ve GIVeN All The BEst In The TraInIng... HeEHEe...

aNd... I'vE BouGht a Cd On FrIDaY @ HMV... iT WaS SAng aND PrODuCEd By GaRY, CAo Ge.... Wah lAu... His VoiCE... Is SO powErFuL... SO UniQue... OH My God... He's A sInGer... Tat MAkE My JAwS DrOpPEd... HaHA... Juz Can'T BeLieVe it Sia... SaD... TaT i'Ve MisSed HiS AuTOGraPh ConCERT @ CinELeISurE 330Pm THis AFtErNooN... Man... WaD A PiTy... BuT Bo PIaN la... lAST Nite ReACh HomE 6AM in THe MOrnINg... 7Am tHeN FaLL aSlp... And WokE Up 3pm... TheN SiaNz HalF le... haIz... NvM... GoT HiS Cd Is MoRe Then GD EnouGh le... =)

TO mY CloSe BelOved FrEn,
u'LL Be AlWays In Our HeaRtS...
AlwAys A VerY VeRY Gd FrEn Of uS...
We ReaLLy MisS u SO mUch...
GoD BLeSs...
ReST In PEAcE...
MiSs U ALwAYs...

i'm Back... heHe... Long TIme nO PosT le...

FInaLLy... DivIsion 1 LeagUe hAs FinAlly Come TO aN ENd To SafsA... Gd NEws iS... We REmAin In THe LEagUe... Bad NEws Is... WE ReMaIN THe SaMe SpoT As LasT Yr... haha... BuT aLL oF us HavE FUn... WIn anD LosE As A TeAm... TaT's All I HopE fOr...

We WoN TonGWHyE... By 12PoiNTs... EvEn We LosT... We StiLL ReMaIN The SaMe SpoT... So ARe ThEY... In The EnD... EVeRYOne Is A WinNer ba... haha...

TODaY... Juz CamE BAck FrM NATIonaL TrAInInG... CoaCH AnnOUNcE TaT... ToDay WilL Be His LASt DaY herE As A NATionAL CoACh... WaD A SaD EnDinG... Juz DIn'T ExPEcT hE'll LEfT so SOoN... But I DeFinaTelY LEArN ALoT AloT FrM Him... ReaLly... "COACH ~!!! THK U~!!!"

OnCe I REaCH HomE... JEnNy CaLLed... suRPRiSeD taT sHE CaLLeD Me @ tHIS Hr... But... JuZ dIn'T ExPEct... DIn'T EXPECT ~!!! SHe GaVe Me A BAd BAd NeWS... SO BaD...TaT I caN'T CrY... Juz A Big SHoCK in MY LIfE... JENnY TOlD mE OuR Best SeC Sch FeMalE ClaSsMaTe, YanPinG... PAsSed AwaY... I Don'T TReAt It As A JOkE... CauSE... JeNnY won'T TakE TIs KinD Of MAtTer TO JokE Wif... YanPinG waS SucH A HAppY Go LUckY PeRSon... How CouLD THis HapPen???... HOW ?! HoW??!!! UpOn HeARinG The NEWs... I reaLlY Duno WaD TO do... WaD's The ReAsON BeHInD iT... it'S StIll UNknoWn... Now... i'm Juz So SaD... SO SaD... All JeNnY, ALicE anD I Can Do... iS waIt....

GoD BlEsS All Of Us And TO u, YanPinG.

HM T_T

heLo... last friday gOt CLuBbIng @ Obar... FUn... BuT... StEveN "SaBo" me... MaKE mE DrInk Tis AnD TaT SIa... DrUNk Till I DuNo HOW I GOt HOmE AnD WhO SEnd ME HoMe... ReaLLy DUno WaD HAPPen... MoOn SiT ThErE SeE me DrInk... waH... Da JiE BuAy StEaDY... DUNo How TO StoP StEvEN De... -.-" " " HeRe'S a PiC WhErE We TooK iT LasT FrIDaY... BuT... beFoRe GeTtIng DrUnk... hahaha... ReaLLy HavE FuN LasT FrIDay... lEt'S meEt AgaIn NexT FeW FrIdaYs... HaHa...

TAkE cArE.
HM >_<

i'm back... wah hahaha.... -.-" " we lost to Eng Tat on Sunday Nite... knn... damn the referees whoare refereeing our game... curses... DUnO WaD The FucK TheY'Re DOiNG in The LasT 2Mins Of The GaME... We FighT tIll So HArD To GeT BacK @ theM by LosIng 3PoiNTs... haiz... KnN... SomETimEs... We HoR... ReaLly DUn HavE The LuCK sIa... NExt Time... The SAmE ReFeReE Did ThIS STuNt AgAiN... I'll ThrEw The BbaLl ToWaRds The ReF's WhisTlE... wahahaha ~!!! if I gOT the ChaNCe... i'll dO It~!!! MaN... i'm SUcH A JErK isn'T It.... haha... well... Juz TypE It Out HeRe OnlY la... I'm Not TaT CRAZY To Do iT.... hahaha....

ThInk i'LL End HerE Wif A PHRaSe WOrDs For ThE DayZ ~ hahaha... i quite liKe ThiS OnE...

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HeRe U CoME, AnD TheRe U Go,
TrEAt Me WeLL, aNd TreAT Me ColD.
I ReaLLy Luv U sO, How Can I LeT Go......

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WoHoo... This One NiCe HOr... haha... DUn PlaY PlaY NEhz... RomANTic oNe Nehz...
TakE CaRe.
HM -_-

si bei tired.... duno wad to post... so i'll juz post down this song lyrics... it's a nice song... if u wan the song... tag the board to contact me... i send it to u...
si bei sianz... so lost and tired... didn't expect tat i drunk last nite and get me to this state.... haiz....

take Care
HM -.-


Sang by Ne-Yo, song name is So Sick.
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Gotta change my answering machine
Now tat i'm alone
Cuz rite now it says tat we
Can't come to the phone
And i knw it makes no sense
Caused u walked out the door
But it's the only way i hear ur voice anymore
It's been mths
And for some reason i juz
And i'm stronger then this
No more walking round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Crying over U
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^chorus^
And i'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said i'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't i turn off the radio?
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Gotta fix tat calender i have
tat's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more u
there's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of u
And ur memory
And how every song reminds me
Of wad used to be
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^chorus^
tat's the reason i'm so sick of love songs
so tired of tears
so done with wishing u were still here
said i'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
so why can't i turn off the radio?
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leave me alone
don't make me think about her smile
or having my 1st child
let it go
turning off the radio
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^chorus^
Cuz i'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said i'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't i turn off the radio?
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^chorus^
Said i'm so sick of love songs
so tired of tears
so done with wishing u were still here
said i'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
so why can't i turn off the radio?
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^chorus^
And i'm so sick of love songs
so tired of tears so done with wishing u were still here
said i'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
so why can't i turn off the radio?
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heLlO EvEryOnez... ReaLly nicE taT U GuYs AnD LaDieS GoT CoMe VisIt MY BloG.... ThAnk U So MuCHx...!! CoMe By MoRe OFtEn K? I'll Try My Best To UpDaTe As OfTEn As I CaN.... HeHe...

I'm veRY TiREd... BaCK InJurY kEepS GiFinG Me ProBlemZ... DoC SaYs It'S a SLip DisC ToDay... If The PaIN GEts WOrsT In 6 WEEks... I'll HavE To CONsiDeRinG OF OpErATiOn... HEaRinG TaT Frm DOc... i'M sO SaD... SHoCk... ThiNkiNG oF THis.... SHouLd I caRrY One My NatiOnal TraInING.... i FOugHT SO HArD All THeSE MthS FoR THeSe AcHIvIeMentS... TrYinG TO KeEp Up... EaRn a PLAcE... ReAChIng MY Top PeAk... AM i ReaLlY NoT SUiTAbLe For PlayIng BAskeTBall... GoD... I'vE HavE SufFer LotS of ENcOUntErs... LuV... mY LifE... My INjurIes... WhY?! Muz I ReaLLY SUfFER to AcHIVe Gd ResULts? Gd LifE? gd ReLaTIonShiPs?... LeT Me TeLl U This!!! PpL May NoT BoRn TO Be A WINnEr... Or A lOSeR.... BUT ~!!! BUT~!!! PpL ARe BoRN Not TO QUiT ~!! TO FiGhT waD TheY beLieVe In... TaT's WaD i'm DO it RItE NOw... BLeSs ME.... i'm PRaYinG HaRD NiTe anD DaY... BeFORe StaRt OF BRaND nEw DaY... BeFOrE ComPEtItioN... i'Ll be PrayInG HaRD...

i'm ReaLLY TiReD TO FIgHT On... mY FrEns... My Luv ONes... AnD To THe PerSon WHo'S SpeCiaL to me... Pls Gif Me The StReNGtH To WIn THiS BATtLe... TaT I'll PraY... "AMEN"...

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TAkE CaRe.
HM -.-

hello again ~! It'S arD 2 WeEks siNce My lasT PosT le... WaH hahAhA... I'll TrY tO MAke It ShoRt AnD SWeEt K?

On The 2Nd ApRil... We WoN Our GamE AGaInsT Tungsan... well... EveRYone DiD Well la... JuZ GlAd taT... The TeaMWorK is TheRe... AnD... We StArtIng TO SlaCk DowN OnCe We GoT A Gd LeaD ThrOugHOut The GaME... TheN WHeN ApPoNeNTs ChaSe Up To A CLoSe LEAD... We'll StArT To PanIc anD can'T PlaY It Out... hahaha... BuT nVm... We'll MakE tHE nECessaRy ChAngEs If We HavE to...

ToDaY... We WOn our GaMe AgAinSt SinKeE.... i Was LatE foR The GamE... DUe To WorkIng TiMe... hahaha.... BuT NvM... EveN ThouGh PlayTimE is Less... As LoNG aS We WIn.... WHO CARES?! haha... We WOn As a TeaM... We LosT aS A TeaM... YeaH...

It'S BeEN aRd 4 Mths SInCe I waS NoMiNated tO TraIn Wif The NatiOnal TeaM... AnOthEr FeW WeEks MoRe... The FInaL namELisT Of The naTIonal TeaM... Will Be OUt... FeEl NerVous anD ExCitEd... haha... Who WilL bE the PpL Be SeLEcTed... EveN ThouGH i Don'T GeT SeLEcTEd... I knw I'Ve AlReAdy Gif My BEst To FIghT For A plaCe anD LeaRn EvERytHing I cAn...

ThInkIng bAck... Wad I'm DoiNG nOw... Is juZ... BaskETball... WorK... SLp...
abit AimLeSs Sia... WhEn I ORD... ConFIrM DiFFeRenT liao... hahaha...

TAkE CaRe
HM >_<

If one day you feel like crying...Call me.
I don't promise that I will make you laugh,
But I can cry with you.
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If one day you want to run away--Don't be afraid to call me.
I don't promise to ask you to stop...
But I can run with you.
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If one day you don't want to listento anyone...Call me.
I promise to be there for you.
And I promise to be very quiet.
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But if one day you call...And there is no answer...
Come fast to see me.
Perhaps I need you too.
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wad sia....

WAd sIA... tONiTE'S gAMe AgAINst TAGaWA... wOn bY 2 pOInTS oNLy LEhZ... HAHA....! bUt nVM lA.. WInNiNg iS aLWaYS fEeLS beTtER thEn lOSiNG mANy mANy tIMeS.... HAaHaA... bUT i ALsO dIN't PLAy mUcH fOr TOnITe's gAMe aLSo... pLAYeD aRD... 3MInS BA... oR sLIgHTy aBIt MORe.... wELL... bETtER thEn nOThINg... eVeN thOUgh I dIN't dO aNYthING... jUZ oNLy rUnNiNG up ANd dOWn oNLy... haIZ... aLSO bORiNG... eVeRy gAmE fINiSH pLAYiNg... FeEl vErY thE lOST lEHZ... DUnO iT'S lOW mOrALE oR SaD... Or MAyBE JUz vEry uPsET wIF mY pLAyINg tIMe BA... eVEn i pLAyEd FOr JUz a wHiLE... i CAN't eVen cONtRiBUtE aNyTHiNG... HAha... cOaCh sEe mE dIdN't cOntRibUtE... tHeN sUB ME oUT LE... wEll tAT's wAd I mysELf tHiNK lA... HAhaHa... or... maYbe ~!!! Juz MAyBe... My ExpEcTAtIon FOr My PerFormaNce Is ToO Much... Who KNw's... EVen I Also DUnO Sia...

This WEdNesDaY is Ivy's BirThday liao... i ConfIrM Can'T Go CLuBbing ON Weds NiTe de... I goT A GaME AgIanSt ChoNG Chee... and HavE tO WoRk and GoT naTIOnal TRaiNiNg @ the SamE DaY aLso... hahaha... Ivy... if u're WatchIng ThiS BloG... FOrGive Me k? wahhahaha...!! ThkX...!


Ah RoY... Colin... No MaTTer WaD... I can'T Go On WeDnEsDay To ZOUK de... So SOrRy Man...
So SorRy Ivy...! =)

HM>_<

Getting back on track..

damn man.... really have to get back to my usual self... even coach also say "where's the HongMing when i'm teaching Dover ITE..." " i can't see it anymore"... wah... hear liao... in my mind says... thinking back... "man... wad have i been doing?! coach is rite... i have to get back to my usual self... if not... i can't keep up... i've to fight for a place in the national squad..." i'm not going there to learn... but fighting for a place instead... somehow... coach triggers my thought la... can feel my motivation... and muz play well on Sunday's game against Tagawa...

coach: thkx...

really regret... tat... I SHOULDN'T have went clubbing last nite... knn... hahaha... think back also no use... happen liao... next day training totally can't concentrate sia... wah hahaha... haiz... happen already happen liao... juz get on wif it... next training have to do it much much better then the previous one... MUZ TELL MYSELF.... NO MORE CLUBBING ON WEDNESDAYS.... ROY ~!!! GET TAT?? hahahaha......! wanna make me drunk ah? put it on fridays ba... hahaha...!!

well... i'll stop here le la... to all ppl i knw... who has my contact number... call me if there's anything ~! hahaha.... take care...!

HM >_<

Angry sia...

tonite's game against tongwhye... i played for the 1st quarter... as a starter... mind set... to front parthman... do not let him have any chances to get the ball... not saying i "tua kang" or wad... i really put up alots of effort to juz front him... didn't include running up and down... knn... front liao... no help side sia... pcb... so pissed off... really pissed off... about the ending of 1st quarter... coach from outside... yelling @ me... "stick to him... stick to him~!!!!" knn... i'm trying to physically push him from the 3point line onwards lehz... knn... think it's easy ah... i still have to front him somemore lehz...

wif my back injury... fronting him... damn... enduring the pain while doing it... on the court thinking... "why am i doing this?!" "wad am i doing this for?! for who?!" "juz to win ~! as i dun wan our training efforts to be wasted... we can do this ~!" "nothing else... cause i so wanted to win every game i played in the NBL division".... 1st quarter ends... kana yelled by coach... "stick and front him ~!!! wad are u doing out there?!" hearing coach said this... i juz walked away and sit down... i knw it's not rite... but i can't say back... juz sit down... and didn't played for the remaining 3 quarters including the OverTime... and lost 93 to 89... Game ends.... when shaking hands... same feeling came back... so so so pissed off... really almost almost cried out... haiz...

now i'm thinking... "why am i doing this?! wif my back injury... i can rest... yet i still fight all the way juz to win and have fun... frens kept saying... u still got a long rd to go... why risk it?!" in my mind "yesh... it's a long rd... it's juz a starting of it... to win for the team..."

HM.....

back injury is coming back again.... sadz....

today ah.... haiz... same thing la... work work work... about 10am in the morning... hide in other office to slp... too tired... duno why... after work... go home relax relax abit... online msn... noone to chit chat wif... mostly all set away mode... -.-" " " hahaha... sianz 1/2 sia... ard 730pm... went for safsa training... train ah train... when coming to play 5on5... juz started playing... one of my teammates... hit my lower back... wah... the pain was so intense... i can't even concentrate... really don't feel like playing... but i can't... not enough ppl... juz nice 10ppl... so i juz endure throughout the game... lucky.. juz only play 1 game... if not... i confirm can't take it... tomolo morning still have to work... then afternoon go hospital check up for my back liao... think have to refer back to therapy... otherwise... i duno wad's my condition also... now typing this blog... sitting down... also very very pain... really duno if the injury can try to heal up abit... then i can play for this coming Sunday's game @ SBC (Singapore Basketball Centre)... against Tong Whye... really hope the injury can heal up quickly... if not... think i've to play wif my injury no matter wad le... haiz... pressure sia...

Got a Quote for today... heheheh... here it goes... "You never lose by loving... But you always lose by holding back..."

HM

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HM >_<

haiz...

hi ladies and gents...
Today, it's a boring day to me... i didn't work today... which means... i'm in office... but didn't work... juz slack ard... wonder ard the base... juz to "siam" my officer... haha... stupid rite? i also find it stupid... if i report sick... not worth it also... sure kana aim... hahaha... oh ya... forgot to mention... we've won the game against SinKee... by 14 points ba... i also forgot liao... when coach puts me on court... i also blur blur go up... paying too much attention on the ball and let me opponent slip through, and get a easy 2 point basket... wah lau... juz went up only less then 10secs... then happen liao... si bei low morale sia... haha... we almost lose out during the 4th quarter somemore.... our defense are slacking down... from leading 20 points, let them chase back to a single digit of 8 points... the lead of 8 points carry on till last 5mins of last quarter and we finally extend the lead to double digits le... hahaha... tat was such a close shave...

today's training ah... haiz... not much ppl lo... only 9 ppl training... morale is super low... no motivation... even though the seniors are encouraging each other... can juz tell from them... the morale is low too... but i juz have to keep on training hard... to fight for a place in the 12 man squad...

Competitions on Wed and Sunday nites.... Trainings on Tues, Thurs and Friday nites.... it's getting on my nerves... feel so left out... so lonely... when frens jio me out for a gathering... i can only say "sorry.... can't make it... got basketball competiton or training" F**k sia... no matter how well i manage the time properly... i juz can't seem to join them to have fun... to knw or concern ard wad's happening... how are they doing... or wad they doing recently...
when i'm finally free and i've jio them out... they can't make it or last min can't make it... i can't blame them... cause they've their own things to do... or i last min jio them is abit rush lo... haha... i think for now... juz see how it goes ba... when ppl jio me... i'll have to try my very very best to join them... juz hate being so left out... haiz...

HM

hihi...

hello to all ~ ~

it's a long time since i create a post le... and almost totally forgot my user id and password... lolx...

well ~ let's start from the 3rd game against chong yi... we lost ~! 66 to 62... knn... totally the same case as our last game sia... pcb... damn fucking du lan... juz really hate it lehz... same thing happen the 2nd time... F*cking fed up sia.... frm 1st quarter... kana scolded to till end of game... -.-"" made alot alot of unforced turnovers... till... the coach gave up on me... frm his looks of it... really can tell... i totally can't make... after tat game... kept thinking... wad's happening to me... how come i'm not playing wad i'm used to play... frens said, my way of playing has been change since my under 18 youth cup... @ 1st i don't believe... until i think back... indeed... my style of playing has changed totally sia... really duno wad's going on... wad made me change to a different style... well... now... i don't decide to change my play back to the past... i've decided to carry on wad i do best... let it be natural... muz think fast and do a gd one... hahaha....!

now... sunday's game against Home United, we lost too, lost by 16 points ba.... BUT ~!!! we made a gd team effort..!! why?! cause... everyone did a very very gd job in defensive today lehz... wau... i'm so motivated... in the court... i didn't think much... juz keep telling myself.... run run run... no matter wad... juz run... haha... somemore... i'm running wif a 38 degree fever... wau... super tired... feel so so so cold when i sit on bench... shivering cold... hehehe.... reach home liao... wa... fever still there.... duno can work on Monday or not lehz... sianz... haha... think have to sweat it out on Monday nite le... go for a jog or something liao... lolx... well... tat's all for now la... duno still can say wad le... if fall sick tomolo... wah... power liao... hahaha....

HM

yeah.... we won....

yesh.... we've won tonite... we've finally won our 1st game... no star players.... everyone contributed! A very very very great team effort...! i juz glad we've won... even though i didn't contribute much... wish to contribute more... but... nvm... i'll try harder next time... and i'm not even my normal myself today... i knw wad happen... but juz dun wish to type it out here.... it's not concerning the game tonite... it's juz other stuff la... lolx... so... i rather swollow it myself... hehehe...

wanna use this chance to gif a shoutout to 2 of my seniors...

JiaRen and Parthman: Really wanna thank both of u guys, for sparing me a pair of shoes... i'll cherish it wif all my mite... every game i've played, every sweat, every moment, i'll remember tat, wifout the 2 of u... i won't be able to perform better in the games. i've really learnt alot... i'll work hard and play hard, THANK U~!

HM